Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Tuesday May 31, 2016 - 2nd of 5 outfits

Each day this week (M-F), I will model one of my five dress outfits. I will wear one of these outfits on June 10, 2016, to  my Doctor's appointment.

This is my second brown dress. I wore this on my day out in November while in Orlando. I really like this dress. The thicker shoulder straps allow me to wear a bra and hide the bra straps. The length and cut of the dress actuate my figure. I love the print and the teal (?) flower in the print.

I am headed to the beach for a mini vacation. I need to add some color to my shoulders, legs and torso. Usually, I try to do this during the early summer, so I have a more even color. This picture shows my lighter color from my elbows up.

 This is my Orlando outfit. Even though I have gained a few pounds, this dress still looks nice. I have on those same open toe brown wedges I like the look, but they will not work, since I am planning on wearing them all day.

I need to find another pair of brown open toe heels or wedges. Once I find another pair, I will donate these to Goodwill.

 In this picture, I am wearing my slow wedge open toe shoe. They are made of a harder leather type material. This material is pressing against my toes and I think it will hurt after wearing them all day. This picture and trhe next one show me wearing the same shoe. I just wanted to show the two different bracelets.

This picture shows off my brown bangle. The picture below shows my white and caramel shell bracelets.

This picture has me in my brown flats. I do not like these flats with that dress. I can not place my finger on it, but I do not like these flats with that dress.

The shoes were better with the other brown dress from yesterday.

Here I am wearing the other multi color closed toe wedge. Its a brown based shoe, But I want an open toe look. However, this shoe looks better with this brown dress.
 Here is my white wedges. I kind of like them , but I do not know how they make my feet. I think they might make them seem too long.
But they do make my legs look good. I like the look of these shoes from the front.  My toes curve nicely with the shoe and I like how the strap frames my feet.

The next three post will cover my blue and black dresses. So the shoes will be different.

Tuesday May 31, 2016 - 45 years old and transitioning for health reasons

[45 MtF] Finally on the path to inner peace: 15 months HRT, 13 months sober from transtimelines

Monday, May 30, 2016

Monday May 30, 2016 - 1 of 5 dress options for HRT appointment

Each day this week (M-F), I will model one of my five dress outfits. I will wear one of these outfits on June 10, 2016, to  my Doctor's appointment.

This appointment will begin my Phase 3, which is life-long HRT. After two years, I will decide if I need some FFS (Feminine Face Surgery). This is a slim chance that I may need breast augmentation. But I doubt it. I think I will be happy with what God gives me.

Phase 4 is surgery to adjust anything the HRT missed. That not only includes FFS and BA but also a possible orchdotomoy.

Phase 5 will be SRS, if I decide to go that way. This Phase is optional because I will be about 63 and there maybe increase risk due to my age.

My first outfit is one of the two brown dresses I have. The other brown dress will be highlighted on Tuesday.

 This is a brown and white dress. I added my light brown and white shell bracelet on one wrist and my brown bangle on the other wrist. You can not see the brown bracelet in this picture.

The problem with this dress, is that I could not wear a bra because of the straps. The back straps criss-cross across my back. I would need a special bra so that the bra straps do not show.

However, this dress has padding in the chest area and that helps. In this first picture, I wore my brown open toe wedges. I wore those all day in Orlando back in November 2015. Over that day, the shoes killed my feet. I had to soak them to get through the night.

I would like some open toe shoes because I am going to get a pedicure before my appointment and I want to show my toes off.

 This second picture has me in my multi-color brown based closed toe wedge. I do not like the color or the closed toe style. But they are more comfortable than the open toe wedges.
This third picture has me in a pair of low wedges that are open toe. These too hurt my feet over the day. But they are open toe and the lower wedge helps save my feet.
 This forth picture is me in a pair of brown flats. It makes the outfit more casual and they wear well. However, they are not open toe.
 Here are my white open toe wedges. The next couple of pictures highlight these shoes. I like them. I took this picture straight ahead. The next picture is from the side, so I can compare the other shoes to this one.

This is a comfortable shoe. But I wonder if it makes my feet look long..

This last picture shows the straps and how they criss-cross in the back. My current bras are not designed for this type of dress. So my bra strps will show while I wear this dress.

I think the dress looks nice and the hemline is slightly above the the knee.

Also, I am not sure I want to wear a brown dress.

Tomorrow, I will model my other brown dress.

I would love your comments or opinions. You can email me susank56@aol.com or leave a comment at the bottom of  this post.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Saturday May 28, 2016 - Hanging out at the Mall.

My friend Karen invited me to go out shopping. I went in boy mode because I had an early inspection and late meeting. We spend 4 hours shopping and looking at clothes. Our styles are very similar. I really enjoyed it.

During our shopping and eating at the food court, we decidedthat after my June 10th doctor's appointment, we will meet for a meal to celebrate my starting HRT.

I told her of my fears, concerns and hopes starting HRT. She was very supportive and that I should not worry. We talked about her roller coaster ride during her teen years and I should expect something similar.

It is so important to have someone to talk to. We had such a good time.

Friday, May 27, 2016

Friday May 27, 2016 - Bathroom Brawl over 5 year girl in Men's bathroom with dad.

This is the results of this crazy non bathroom issue. I can relate to this because I have three daughters. When they were young, I use to take them into the men's bathroom with me and use a stall. There was no way I was going to send them into the women's bathroom alone at such a young age.

But because of the craziness, it gives jerks and crazy people the opportunity the act up.

Maniac Attacks Dad With Daughter in Men's Room at Walmart

Friday May 27, 2016 - My dresses for my HRT appointment

Earlier this week, I mentioned that I need to decided which dress to wear to my June 11th doctor's appointment. Below are the five dresses to choose from. Over the next few posts, I will try each one on as part of a complete outfit.

Your thoughts and recommendations will be appreciated.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Thursday May 26, 2016 - Breast Development

In general breast development may be noticeable within a couple of weeks. This will mostly involve a little puffiness on the chest and your nipples being hard much of the time. These changes are MOSTLY reversible up to 6 months but some changes will be permanent by the time you reach the 6 month mark.

There is actually a system (Tanner scale I-V) for categorizing breast development invented by doctors. Which I will reference here.

  • Tanner I
    no glandular tissue: areola follows the skin contours of the chest (prepubertal) (typically age 10 and younger)
  • Tanner II
    breast bud forms, with small area of surrounding glandular tissue; areola begins to widen (10–11.5)
  • Tanner III
    breast begins to become more elevated, and extends beyond the borders of the areola, which continues to widen but remains in contour with surrounding breast (11.5–13)
  • Tanner IV
    increased breast size and elevation; areola and papilla form a secondary mound projecting from the contour of the surrounding breast (13–15)
  • Tanner V
    breast reaches final adult size; areola returns to contour of the surrounding breast, with a projecting central papilla. (15+)

As you can see above it takes roughly 4-5 years for a Cis Female to reach a fully mature adult breast, Tanner V. First of all, most transwomen will not reach stage V. Those that do generally have had orchiectomy and are under 22-3 years old. The reason is the human growth hormones your body relies on during puberty to speed growth peaks at 16-18 and drops off dramatically after 22-24 years of age.

Most transwomen will not have fully developed breasts. Understand that this is normal. Most will be Tanner III or Tanner IV. 

From the experiences of many others it seems that most breast development will be within the first 18 months and then slow almost to a stop. If you have had an orchiectomy then breast growth may continue out to 3 years. Even small amounts of testosterone slow down and stop the growth process and even on antiandrogens you will have some testosterone.

Some other miscellaneous facts and factors.

  • Proper breast growth seems to require progesterone as well as estradiol and many endocrinologists still do not prescribe progesterone for some reason. Progesterone will help you develop a fuller breast and mammary glands. There are both synthetic and natural progesterones. One may work better than the other for different people. Progesterone is also involved specifically in nipple growth.

    One reason it is not prescribed is becuase it is going out of favor in postmenopausal women to supplement with progesterone. The medical risks for progesterone use are only really relevant for older persons and mostly not a factor if you are 20-40 years of age. Ask about adding progesterone.
  • Intramuscular Injectable Estradiol tends to give better results than pills or transdermal patches. It is also safer as the estrogen only has to pass the liver once which may reduce the risk of blood clots. It can make you more moody though as the estradiol levels taper off between shots.
  • A Good diet is essential. Make sure you are taking a multivitamin and eating healthy but that your Zinc levels are not too high. Zinc interferes with estrogen absorption. I would also suggest Omega 3 / Fish oil tablets and a Calcium +D pill. Being on HRT makes you more susceptible to Osteoporosis and the Calcium helps fight that.
  • When your breasts grow it will hurt. First it will start with little prickling sensations which the Extra Details mention. This will get worse before it gets better and it is totally normal

Below is a comment about the above article.

Read Anonymous' answer to When do transgender women's (MtF) breasts start and stop growing? on Quora

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Thursday May 26, 2016 - Feeling strange

I have been feeling strange and off balance the last few days. I am very busy with work, my daughter's family is moving, my week-long vacation starts next week and I start HRT in a few weeks. I should be happy and in a sense, I am. But I do not feel like exercising and I am not doing my morning and evening skincare every day.

Maybe I am just overwhelmed.

So today I am going to try something different. After I spend the day working, I am going to the gym and then I am going to figure out which dress and accessories I am going to wear to my Doctor's appointment on June 11th.

I am going to take my time and experiment with outfits and accessories. I am going to buy a few more sets of fake eyelashes and experiment. There is so much going on, that I am neglecting my feminine self.

Wednesday May 25, 2016 - Electrology Session

Tuesday, I had an electrology session. My beard is so thin and I love it. It was been 18 days since my last session. This session lasted just just under an hour with fewer tears

My plan was to have my beard removed by the time I start HRT. I am soooo close. I have my next session planned for June 8th to be followed by my last scheduled session on June 22. With my HRT starting on June 11th, I decide to have a session before I start and one after I begin. I doubt it, due to the short time period, whether being on HRT impacts the pain.

I always thought that HRT would heighten my nerves that thru increase the pain during my session. So I want see if there is a pain difference before and after HRT.

After June 22, 2016, I will schedule an appointment if I feel my facial hair growth is too much.

Its been two years with e3000 in Dallas and 18 months with Southside Electrology. Both did a great job on my face and I will be forever grateful.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Tuesday May 24, 2016 - This commencement speech brought tears to my eyes.

David Gergen, Senior Political Analyst for CNN, addressed graduates on May 21, 2016 at Elon University's commencement ceremony. Elon University is in his home state of North Carolina. 

He gave a historical moving speech about the history of his home state and the current political climate in North Carolina. You can watch the 22+ minute speech here.

Below, I have a very moving section about the transgender community. You must listen to about a 1 minute of the speech below.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Monday May 23, 2016 - Dresses I like and do not like

Below are two examples of dresses I like. I have a certain style I like. I hope to expand my acceptable styles, in the future.

I like the length of these dresses. At my age, the knee length is a nice demure length. I like the sheath dress, because it shows of my figure, which I work hard to keep. The print on the left picture is nice and is busy while I love the lace on the dress on the right. The neckline on both dresses are nice. I do not want a plunging neckline that shows off too much chest. The lace dress is low enough and maybe too low. Both the sleeveless and 3/4 sleeves are nice.

My youngest daughter told me to keep the sleeves above my wrist, so I can show off my bracelets.

Below are two dresses I do not like. The main problem with both of these dresses are not form fitting enough. They are too flowing. The red dress has a nice hemline and would be nice for the summer. But it hides my figure. The dress on the right has a hemline that is too low.

The love the shoes on all four pictures. But you can see they type of dresses I like. I am looking to buy  a special dress for my doctor's HRT appointment in three weeks.

I will present it in the next couple of weeks, as I find that right look for this special occasion.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Sunday May 22, 2016 - Cleaning day

Something strange happened to my blog. The post I made during the Liberty University graduation disappeared and was replaced by an older draft. I do not know how that happened. I did get a very negative comment which I deleted. Here is the link to post. I had to recreate the post and republish the draft. Weird.

Today, I am going to spend some fem time shaving and taking care of my skin, nail and face. Its been 16 days since my last electrology session and my  face has very little hair. I am basically finished. I am going to have a session this Tuesday and then again, the day before my doctor's appointment (June 10th). My appointment in the 11th.. After my June 10th session, I will make an appointment, if I think there are enough facial whiskers to make it worth going.

Karen and I went to the movies Friday and we had a very good time. I talked to her about how I feel my transition is slowly coming together. I like how I look in the the mirror. I mentioned that I have not been in the gym or eating like I need to and I can feel and see the difference. But I feel good and like the general direction.

I am 3 weeks away from starting HRT and I am so excited. I have been working hard to save some money because I would like to take a 2 or 3 day mini-vacation before I begin.

My daughter and her family will be moving within the next few weeks and I will have my privacy, so I can spend more time playing with makeup. I want to lose a few pound before I start HRT. So I am going back in the gym today.

This is going to be a busy next 3 weeks.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Saturday May 21, 2016 - My breasts

Thursday night, I had two wonderful dreams. It took me an an extra day to digest them, so I am writing about these two dreams today.

I have always had a love/hate relationship with my breasts. I have gynecomastia. When I was a pre-teen and sneaking around wearing my mothers clothes, I had to kneel next to the bed a say my prayers before I went to sleep. I use to secretly pray to wake up as a girl and become a women with breasts like my Mom.

To my horror, as a young teen, my breasts started to grow. I got nervous that God was answering my prays, so I stopped. I often wonder, that if I were a teen today, would I have to guts to tell my parents that I wanted to be girl and use all of the examples out there to show the possibility. I think my Mom would have said yes, as see supported me in my older years (1990's on. ). My dad would still have had a son, my brother, but I do not know what his support would be. He probably would have been neutral., like he was in real life.

Back to my dreams.

All I remember was from the first dream was that I was with other women, my friends and I was so happy being with them laughing and joking. I remember my breasts, not in a lewd or sexual way, but that they were there, beautiful and part of me. I was aware of them as I moved. I felt complete, satisfied, beautiful, happy and me. As I write this, I want to cry because I want to go back to that place. I believe dreams are messages about a possible future outcome. I need to make the right decisions and have some luck. If so, I will get back to that place. And I will cry with tears of joy.

My second dream was of Susan and my friend at a Doctor's office. My friend was complimenting me about my breasts and I opened my shirt for the female Doctor to see. She smiled and said they were beautiful and developing very well. I buttoned my shirt backup feeling happy and satisfied.

Last night, my friend Karen and I went to see the Capital America movie and I told her about my dreams. She agreed that it was my inner self agreeing with my decision to start HRT in 3 weeks. Time is moving so fast so, I remember when HRT was 200 days away.

Friday, May 20, 2016

Friday May 20, 2016 - Our History

Just some of our history over the past 70 years. We have come a long way but still have more miles to travel. Are you up for it?

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Thursday May 19, 2016 - My favorite sweater dress

Today was an electrology day. But I had to go out of town. So, I rescheduled for next Tuesday. My face looks great. It's been 12 days since my late session and I have every few facial hairs left. I could probably live with the few whiskers left. But I plan on two or three more sessions, then I am finished.

Tuesday, I worked from home and wore one of my favorite sweater dresses I love this dress. I wore it with some black leggings. I added my black flats.

This dress has the horizontal lines around the hips. This helps balance out my figure by widening my hips while the black color makes my waist look narrower.

I also like the print around my shoulders. The sleeves are short which show my two color arms. Notice my arms from the shoulder down toward the elbow is lighter than from the elbow to fingers.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Tuesday May 17, 2016 - Transmen - I learned a lot from them

Time magaizine has an article about Transmen. I found it a fascinating story about a few Transmen who discuss their transition and how society treats men differently than woman. We all know about the different treatment but reading about it from people who moved from womanhood to manhood was interesting. It shed a new light on my transition from manhood to womanhood.

One item was  grocery shopping. As a woman he use to spend time debating which brand to purchase. Now it takes less time for him to shop as he is more decisive and just grabs an item and keeps moving. As a guy I get it. When I shop, I move through the store quickly grabbing what I want. But does this mean that I will soon be spending more time shopping as the estrogen makes me less decisive? Will I now spend more time figuring out which butter to buy?

Another issue was making friends. One of the Transmen found it more difficult building male friendships because he is unsure how the dynamics work. If a guy punches you on the should, what does that mean?

For me, 60 years as a guy gives me enough experience to build male friendships fast. I get it. But what about female friends. I have no experience in female to  female friendship building. I have noticed how attentive women are to each other when they talk, But I do not get the verbal and non verbal queues. For example, I am eating a meal and sitting across the table from a female friend as we talk she reaches over and touches my hand, what is that signal?. Now I know if depends on the conversation but I am use to being a male and that signals of possible future sex. But does it now signal that she understands and is caring? I will need to learn these new queues.

If you have some time, watch the video and/or read the Time article, I have links below. I think you might find this interesting and make you think about transition issues in a different way.

Transgender Men and Sexism

Tuesday May 17, 2016 - Worked from Home dressed

Last week I was so busy working and getting ready for the graduation weekend. So today I wanted to express my femininity by dressing. Even though I am at home today, I needed to dress.

It was cool today so I wore my grey sweater top with tight black jeans and my grey flats. I added a recently purchased scarf to keep my neck warm.

I noticed that its been 11 days since my last electrology session. I see very few whiskers on my face. I have an appointment this Friday, but I am finished. I think I can live with what little face hair I have. Maybe, I need to have a session, once a month. I will go in this Friday but this will be my last session for a while.

I am afraid that once I start HRT, the electrology sessions may hurt more as the estrogen might heighten might sensitivity.

I have decided to work on my makeup and clothing style, leading up June 11th and HRT. I will add voice and mannerisms later in the summer.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Monday May 16, 2016 - Trip home

On my drive home Sunday, we stopped at Target, in North Carolina to get some more diapers. I waited in the food area while my daughter shopped for diapers.

I did notice a security guard near the bathroom. Well its North Carolina and maybe this Target is on the hit list of the anti-LGBT groups that are trying to send men into women bathrooms.

I also noticed a tall lady with her children. The picture I have does not adequately show how tall she is. But she was slightly taller then me (I am 5'10"). She was with two children.

I mentioned this lady because I read that some transwoman are afraid to come out due to their height. This lady had on a bright orange top with matching flats and a nice knee length skirt. She was not only tall but big. Her hands, feet and shoulder were large but overall shape was hourglass. She projected all female to me. That was because he knew in her mind she was female. Even with her height and large features she was very  feminine and attractive.

I always say, that once I removed my mental chains and presented as either a Femboy or Susan, I connect with my femininity and it was just natural.

I do not know if she is a cis-woman or a Transwoman because it does not matter. I can tell she is part of that sisterhood and everyone believes it.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Sunday May 15, 2016 - Busy Weekend

The past five day have been very busy getting ready for my daughter's graduation and work. So I have not been spending mush time as Susan.

I tried to create a blog post from my phone, but I my upload kept failing. So I had to go to the campus library to complete the post.

Me, being at Liberty University felt like I was crossdressing. 99.9% of the people treated me fine and the large number of  campus visitors were surprisingly diverse. This is due to the majority of graduates being from the online courses. Like crossdressing, that one person out of hundred you see, can ruin your day.

I have learned that you do not let that 1 person bother you. I did notice a couple of people give me that uncomfortable look or interact in a rude way. But overall, we had a very good day. It did rain as we were leaving, so we got very wet running to the car. Then, of course the traffic was horrible. The university did an excellent job getting everyone situated on campus, in the morning. But there was very little help getting off campus.

I did see this young lady in a very pretty dress. It was a warm and bright sunny morning (Did not rain until the afternoon). This young lady worn a dress and shoes I would have worn. It was a pretty yellow dress with a nice knee length hemline.

Her white shoes had a low heel which was going to work well due to all of the walking required. I personally love the ankle strap open toe shoe. It framed her feet and her pretty pink polished toe nails gave a nice sophisticated appearance.

She was pretty with a nice conservative look that brightened an already sunny bright day.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Saturday May 14, 2016 - I am at Liberty University

I am here at the Liberty University graduation in Lynchburg, VA. My oldest daughter is receiving her Master's degree in counseling. I am writing this post during the ceremony.

I did not know she was in their online program until this year. Over the decades, said I would never visit Lynchburg, Va. The history of the name bothers me. Then Liberty University is here.

But I had to come to support my daughter. I thought about wearing an Obama button or a Hillary button.
But I decided its my daughter's day.

Well, the ceremony is tough to listen to.  Rev Falwell Jr. opened by saying they have 19,000 students graduating. Of those 19,000 are 1,000 students graduating from their online K-12 High School. He expects the online home school to grow because of Common Core and Transgender bathrooms. WTF!!

Not only did he talk about the bathroom issue but also Ted Cruz, Ben Carson and Sean Hannity. Also, one of the Duck Dynasty stars spoke.

The crowd is decidedly diverse. Its probably because of all of the online students. Therefore the crowd did not react to much of the speech. There is some clapping but most people are like me and not reaching. 

I end this post before the ceremony is over by asking for a favor.

Please pray for me today. I need it today.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Friday May 13, 2016 - Obama Administration supports for Transchildren in school


Thursday May 12, 2016 - Lipsticks

I learned to like a darker color lipstick after my Clinque makeover. I want to try our different lipstick colors without buying them first. I wonder if trying testers at the makeup store is healthy enough?

Here is a nice infographic about lipstick color, followed by a video I watched about lipsticks.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Wednesday May 11, 2016 - Continuing my workout

I am now back in the gym and I am feeling much better. After almost two weeks off, I can feel the difference after a few days of hard workouts. I need to slim down before June 11th.

I am on the stairmaster, which is a very tough workout. I am up to 45 minutes which includes 3 minutes at the highest level. My goal is one hour on the stairmaster and I am going to add one hour of elliptical on alternate days.

I have also started to track my daily calories on myfitnesspal.

This is my goal.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Tuesday May 10, 2016 - We have come a long way since 2008.

This made my day when I heard Attorney General Lynn speak directly too us. It feels so good when the government has your back..Also it was such a hopeful speech.

Monday, May 9, 2016

Monday May 9. 2016 - A remarkable 95 year old transwoman

This is a remarkable story and just what I needed. She was born in 1921 and fought in WWII. She married and had three children. She began transitioning in 1976.

She met her future husband in 1979 and married him in 2004. He passed at the age of 96 in 2012.

Can you image having two fulling lives and marriages? There is hope out there. I needed this hopeful story.

Below is a video and an article about this extraordinary lady and her life.
WWII Veteran Who's Now a Woman Wins a Legal Battle for Transgender Couples

Monday May 9, 2016 - Rough Mother's Day

I woke up Sunday and just did not feel like getting out of bed. I realized I have been feeling blue all weekend. Going to the gym helped on Saturday, but I felt glued to the bed.

Then I realized that this was my first Mother's Day without my mother. The last 10 years have been rough compared to my first 50 years. I always knew what I wanted to do and was motived to move upward.

But 10 years ago, at 49, my Dad died and I have been kind of wandering around since then. Of course, 6 years ago I decided to start this journey but I lack the hard driving motivation in all areas. Part of this is due to age but I think part of it is due to not having my parents around. I am the oldest child and always want to prove I was equal to the task. I want to prove that I was equal to my Dad and worthy of his name.

Now that they are not here, I can finally be who I am. Maybe that is why I am worried about coming out to my friends and people who knew my parents. They may think by doing this, I am not measuring up to my Dad. Plus I am changing my name.

I need to break this last mental chain. I start HRT next month and there will be no turning back.

I finally got out of bed motivated to move forward. I turn 60 in July and I want to spend the last 25 years as Susan.

I realized I have not shown much of me (in boy mode) or my family. I am going to introduce my family today. It sort of another way I am going out.

Ten years ago was another milestone because I was on a game show called Deal or No Deal.

Below is a excerpt from that show that I recently found on you tube. This was 2006, three months after my Dad passed and four years before I started this journey.

They say TV adds a few pounds! LOL

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Saturday May 7, 2016 - Back in the gym.

Today I am going back in the gym after a week off to get rid of my poison ivy. The steroid pills worked. I took the week off because the week before, I exercised and noticed the rash had spread. So I took the rest of that week off to use calamine lotion in an attempt to dry out the rash. It did not work, so that is why I went to the CVS clinic and received steroid pills.

Now that my week of bill taking is over, I am excited to get back in the gym today. I need to because I have had a lot of nervous eating and I can feel the weight gain. With just 5 weeks until HRT begins, I need to concentrate on getting thinner. I can still squeeze into by size 30 inch pants, but they are not comfortable. When I was an my lowest weight, those pants fit well.

I am going to get back on my fitness pal to help control my caloric intake and use that stairmater (45 minutes) and elliptical machine (1 hour) every other day. I have a lot of traveling to do this month, so it will not be easy.

This is crunch time and I do well under pressure. I only get to start HRT once and I want to have a certain look when I start. I want my stomach as flat as possible and my overall body thin. Then after a 2 or 3 months of HRT, I want to gain weight in hopes of the fat forming in female locations instead of male.

So today starts it.

Friday, May 6, 2016

Friday May 6, 2016 - Electrology Session

Today was another electrology session. With my poison ivy gone, I was able to get a good face clearing. There is not hair much left and I am ready for the pain to go away.

Thursday, I bought a new makeup bag at CVS. I needed one to organize my items for my bathroom and to be able to carry them with while I travel.

I wanted a brighter color but I was able to get this bag at a good price.

It has three sections, so I broke my makeup into three sections:
1) Foundation, blush, contour and highlighter
2) Lipstick, gloss and lip liner
3) Eyelash, eyebrow and eyelid makeup

I think this bag will work well. Time will tell.