But, I guess it really started at age 8 in 1964, when I remember trying on my mother's shoes and girdle with stockings. I have what is now know as gender dysphoria. It shaped my life in so many ways.
By age 54, I just figured it was time to complete the journey. So, I began by losing a lot of weight via cardio and changing my what I ate. I went from a waist of 45 to 30. My lowest weight was 160. I am about 175, which is a good weight for me. My female dress size dropped to an 8/10. I am a 10/12 which is a good size.
I then spend 4 years getting beard removed by electrology. I spend 2 years at E3000 in Dallas and the last 2 years locally, I could still use some clean up work. Maybe another year, going once a month for less than 1 hr each session.
I discovered how times had changed and it was not a big issue. I think the general public's exposure thru the internet and media and has turned crossdressing into "no big deal".
Finally in June 2016 at almost, 60 years old, I started HRT with the thought of living full-time as Susan King.
However, what I discovered is that the changes brought on my HRT have brought me to a very satisfying place, 18 month later.
I will always have dyshporia, but the physical and mental changed brought on my HRT, have brought me to a very happy place that is short of full-time living.
Physically, I love how I look and feel. Getting up every morning and looking at a woman in the mirror and having to put on a bra because my breasts hurt is very satisfying.
PRE_HRT
17 Months of HRT
Crying at emotional events and memories is satisfying.
I no longer follow sports and enjoy a good emotional movie or show.
I now dress as either male or female, based on how I feel that day. But I know I am female inside. I finally feel comfortable with myself. I am not longer driven to find the time to dress or be woman. I am one.
I am going to rest and enjoy this stop. This maybe the final stop on my journey and if so, I am going to build a great life right here.
This will be my last blog post. I started on April 08, 2014.
I thought I would continue many years. But after 1,163 Posts and 437,000+ pageviews, its time.
I use to wonder why ladies would transition and stop. Now I know why.
Thank you for following. There maybe updates in the future.
P.S.: Thank you for all of the positive emails. Just like Stana's blog helped me, I am glad I was able to help others. The comments on this post and the emails were extremely nice and appreciated.
Hi Susan Sorry to read that this will be your last blog post. Being someone who is a few years older than you but well behind you on my journey, I have appreciated your blogs enormously. You are one of the people who have helped me realize that I am not alone in feeling a mismatch between my physical form and my thought processes. I wish you well for the rest of your life.
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Let me thank you for sharing your life and your journey over the past several years. I know that posting on a regular basis can become a chore...almost like work...but I for one would look forward to see what was on your mind as the days rolled by.
ReplyDeleteI wish you only the best for a happy and fulfilled life. You are a good person with a wonderful family.
If you do post perhaps I will come across a link on one of the other sites where you were linked. I do hope you post from time to time.
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Pat
God bless you Susan. I have read your blog everyday for years. You have helped me in so many ways. Thank you for sharing your life.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes!
Marcia
Congratulations for being happy!! I have enjoyed reading your blog and following your story. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you, Susan.
ReplyDeleteyour blog was very informative and helpful to other trans people. Godspeed Susan!
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