Sunday February 12, 2017 - Not like other boys.

This picture reminds me of my young days when I would dress around the house and hate myself for it. I remember those early purges. I lost some good stuff (smile).

If only I could go back and tell my younger self to own it. It's a gift and not a curse.

Saturday February 11, 2017 - 8 month physical measurements

Below are my current measurements and the change since last month. The picture is followed by an explanation and then a table showing the monthly changes since I began HR on June 10, 2016..

The above chart shows that last month only my breast line and above the breast line increased. My shoulders decreased while everything below my breast line did not change.

I am still not exercising as I continue to work on my blood sugar levels. My weight is stable due to the strict eating regimen.

The difference in size between my above breast area and breast line remained to 3.50 inches. The difference between the area under my breast line (bra band) and my breast line increased from 5.50" to 6.00". I am going to buy a couple of 36C bras as I am filling out the 36B bras.

My waist at my belly button did not change. At least I am staying down under 36". My goal is 34". I probably need exercise to reach that goal of 34 inches.

Overall I am happy with my results. I still need to figure out how to get back into the gym..

The only real change this month is my slight increase in breast volume.

AREA	0 Day	30 DAYS	60 DAYS	90 DAYS	120 DAYS	150 DAYS	180 DAYS	210 DAYS	240 DAYS
SHOULDER	?	45.0	45.0	43.0	43.0	41.0	41.0	42.0	41.5
ABOVE BREAST	37.0	37.0	37.5	36.0	36.5	36.5	38.0	36.0	36.5
BUST LINE	38.0	39.0	39.5	38.50	39.75	39.00	40.0	39.5	40.0
BRA BAND	36.0	35.0	35.5	34.75	35.0	34.25	34.5	34.0	34.0
WAIST@BELLY BUTTON	38.0	36.0	37.0	36.5	37.0	36.5	35.5	35.0	35.0
HIPS	40.0	40.0	40.0	40.0	39.5	39.5	39.5	39.0	39.0
THIGHS	37.0	37.0	37.0	36.5	36.0	36.0	36.5	36.0	36.0
HIPS VS SHOULDERS	--	5.0	5.0	3.0	2.0	1.5	1.5	3.0	2.5
BUST LINE VS ABOVE BREAST	1.0	2.0	2.0	2.5	3.25	2.5	2.0	3.5	3.5
BUST LINE VS BRA BAND	2.0	4.0	4.0	3.25	4.75	4.75	5.5	5.5	6.0

My physical goals for Month 8 were:

1. Keep losing weight (stable)
2. Get my waist down to 34" (no luck this past month)

My physical goals for Month 9 are:

1. Try to keep losing weight 
2. Get my waist to 34"

Friday February 10, 2017 - 8 months HRT - Mental changes

I can not believe its been 8 months since my HRT journey started. I remember when it was 8 months pre-HRT and I could not wait.

Well, there have been many changes both physical and mental. Today, I am going to discuss mental changes and Saturday, the physical ones.

The mental changes are subtle and kind of sneak up on you. I can not tell you exactly what happened in which month, but as I compare today to 8 months ago, there are many changes.

What I Listen to:
I grew up listening to talk radio. My Dad had a local weekly talk show and I became interested in listens to politics instead of music. I was never big in music. I remember when my Dad took me to his favorite record store (what is that?) and he bought me a few 45's (?).

I developed a small record collection in high school and college but never a CD collection. I did have a cassette collection as I picked cassettes over 8-tracks. I did not have a favorite music station.

I always listened to talk radio in the morning for news, weather and traffic. Now I use Google. In the 1990's as talk radio tilted right with Rush growing during Clinton's term, I turned to sports radio.

I have not listened to my sports station since Nov/Dec 2016. This was during the time the Falcon's made their run to the Superbowl. I just found it boring. Instead, I have built a series of youtube music playlists. I now listen to them constantly. I find the music better reflects my mood and I like the messages in the songs.

My Emotions:
Yesterday, I had a bad reading with my Blood test and I became very gloom and doom. I started crying and I turned on my playlist of love songs. It took a while for me to recover. I called my friend Karen and we had dinner. We laughed, joked and I felt much better.

I have become more emotional. Usually its when I think about certain things, listen to certain songs or see something that brings back specific memories. I like this state of mind.

My Driving:
I use to be a very offensive driver and believed that driving was like war and you had to take the road. Now, I do not care and I take my time going where I need to go. I listen and sing to my music. If someone cuts me off, that is OK. It's no longer an act of war.

Being Female 24/7
I stated in this blog that in 2017, I would begin presenting female 24/7. Recently, I have written that I have paused and I do not know when or if I will. That is because my desire to dress is gone. I still wear female under garments and night clothes. But dresses and skirts with makeup, it is no longer a driving force like it had been for about 50 years.

Overall
I get more compliments from family, friends and even strangers about my youthful look and attitude. I really like where I am and I hope I stay here for the remaining 25+ years. In March, end of month 9, I will see my Doctor and discuss this with him in more detail. I expect to take hormones, the rest of my life, I just need to discuss the regimen.

In the meanwhile, maybe spring time will motivate me to put on a pretty dress and get out more.

Saturday February 4, 2017 - Breast Timeline

A few posts ago, I stated that I was pausing my transition. I am still taking my HRT meds as given by my Doctor. But I am not planning on presenting full-time, as Susan, anytime soon. I had plan on presenting full-time in 2017.  In March I go back to my Doctor for a 90-day check up. At that point, I will discuss this pause issue with him. One reason I chose him is because he has a large transgender clientele and I am sure he has deal with this issue before.

I am very happy where I am. I love how my body and face are slowly changing.

Friday, I noticed that my 36B bra was not fitting the same, I think I have had a recent spurt. This Monday, I am going to go bra shopping for a 36C, so I can see how it fits. I bought my first 36B while still in a 36A. Once the 36A became too small, I easily was able to move up.

Below is one of my favorite 36B bras, with the front lace.

These pictures were taking in early October 2015 which 4 months on HRT. I did not fill the whole cup, I liked the color and lace and figured that I would eventually need it.



This next set of pictures is from February 2017. Its now over 7 months on HRT. I am now filling the 36B. One of my favorite 36B bras seems to be getting small.



Next Saturday will be my monthly measurement post. I wonder how it will turn out.

Wednesday February 1, 2017 - Another beautiful day!

Today is going be a another beautiful day in Atlanta. January 2017 must have been the warmest month on record. Today is going to be sunny and in the 70's.

I feel like presenting as Susan today. Its the first time in weeks. However, I was asked to teach a College course, this semester on Monday and Wednesday, so I have to be in boy mode today. That's bummer.

However, I am enjoying being back in the classroom and the Dean told me that the students like the class. It's a Business Policy class for graduating seniors.

I am at a very joyous place. I do not feel pressure to dress. As a matter of  fact, I have been buying more male clothes than woman clothes. Mostly because of my teaching job.

But I am hoping that the nice weather will make me feel like presenting more female. Either look works for me as it will depend on how I feel in the morning.

I have been so busy getting ready for this course that I have not been able to write many personal posts. I have a few and hope to get them out later this week.

One post, is about a talk I had with a your transgender student on campus Monday. I sat at her table and gave her some "motherly" advise from a 60 year old transwoman to a 19 year old transwoman. That was really neat. I wish I had that chance at 19.