Tuesday October 4, 2016 - My first Time out

I was cleaning my closet and found a set of old pictures of Susan (1993-200). I can not believe how time flies. That was 16 to 23 years ago. Darn!

In 1990, I decided I need to address my dyphoria by telling my parents that the adversion therapy did not work. From that day until now, I have only worn woman panties. It was my early attempt at trying to address my dysphoria.

Finally in 1993, due to this new thing called the internet, I found a Tri-Ess group in Atlanta. I remember Tri-Ess from the Phil Donahue show. Tri-Ess is a national heterosexual crossdressing group that makes room for the wife or girlfriend.

The first time I went to a meeting, I was not dressed and just eat at the hotel restaurant while they were having a meeting. After the meeting, I approached them and talked to the President, who was a wife of one of the members. I asked if I could join.

I was welcomed with open arms and met another wife who was a Mary Kay associate. She invited me to her house for a makeup session.

So on September 12, 1993, I introduced Susan to the world. I checked into the local hotel and changed into Susan. I bought a name tag with Susan King on it. I do not remember what happened but I enjoyed the weekend and had some pictures taken. Below is one of them.

I like the dress but the makeup add hair needs work. I had bought some prescription glasses just to wear when dressed.

I remember those days of wearing stockings. I miss stockings because I have great legs, like my Mom and I loved the feel and look of stocking. My favorite stockings were ultra sheer black. I still have a draw full of stocking, but have not worn them in years. But, I still wear tights during the winter. .

The next month, I went to another weekend meeting. We walked from the hotel to a local Arby's for lunch. I was so scared. I remember feeling like I was in a fish bowl. We ordered and ate at the restaurant.

I do remember at this meeting talking about a national convention in Atlanta, called Southern Comfort. I thought it was a good idea and though about going. But I decided against it.

Below I placed my 1993 picture next to my Pre-HRT 2016 picture. I could highlight so many differences. But the main different in mental. In 1993, I was just peeking my head out of the closet. I was a guy, dressing as a woman. But I did not have the confidence and I did not know how to bring Susan out. I was so afraid.

By 2016, I have the confidence and thanks to the internet, I have the knowledge. Remember in 1993, there was no femulate.org. How did we live without it?

Who says we do not get better with age?

1993

2016

I have come a long way and I can not wait for the next chapter to unfold.