As I went to the clerk to check in, the guy said that I looked like someone who will workout for 2 to 3 hours. The clerk said that I was and he noticed I came in late in the evening and worked out for a long time.
I smiled and said yes, I do alot of cardio because I like to stay in "bathing suit condition". They laughed and the guy said his feet would hurt if he did cardio that much.
I responded by saying, if you have good sneakers and use the elliptical machine, you will be ok. When I use the bike, it hurts my knees.
As I walked toward the locker room, the clerk told me to have a good workout. I replied thank you and preceded to the locker room. I completed only 1 hour on the elliptical machine and 15 minutes of warm up on the stairmaster.
While completing my cardio, I thought about how comfortable I am becoming with the new me and how accepting people are.
I wore my new dark blue leggings with a red bra, red undershirt, pink and light blue top with my pink and black sneakers.
"I thought about how comfortable I am becoming with the new me and how accepting people are." - Susan
ReplyDeleteI hope you are also being realistic. It only takes one brief event (a cold stare, a mumble word in passing, or an outright incident of some kind) to poke a hole in your balloon of confidence and acceptance. I hope that never happens, but judging from other people's experiences it is a possibility. I suppose one must both soar and steel yourself at the same time.
Happy Friday!
All the best,
Kati
That is a very good point.
ReplyDeleteBack in 1996, I spent a week at my timeshare as Susan. I went to the Mall several times. The last time, I was called out as a man in a dress. I left the Mall heartbroken.
However, as I think about that and other times, I realized this:
During that week as Susan:
1) I met other transgender women (thru Internet Bulletin Boards) and we went out
2) I shopped at Malls and other retail stores (even trying on clothes)
3) I went out to dinner numerous times
4) had my first set of acrylic nails
During those times out, I passed and/or interacted with thousands of people. Why let 1 or 2 people out of thousands ruin your day or week?
What about the thousand who ignored me, said nothing or maybe I passed?
It has not happened to this time, except that young boy who said I was wearing girl sneakers. Now I am prepared for the time I am called out. And my answer will be .... So what!? Or I will just smile and keep moving. Then figure out how to improve.