Friday August 12, 2016 - Emotional changes

Kati Reynolds left a comment on yesterday's post. Its a very important question that I did not address because that post was about physical measurements. However, I should include in the future monthly post about my physical changes, any mental/emotional/psychological changes.

I felt it was more important to answer Kati's question in a post than in a reply to her comment.

So thank you Kati.

In these past two months, emotional/mental changes have occurred but they are slight and less noticeable.

1. Within the first month, I started feeling calmer and less aggressive in situations. Growing up in NJ, I was always a very aggressive driver and in a hurry to get somewhere. Even in my late 50's, I have been told I have slowed down, but I get upset if I feel disrespected on the road. Now, I do not care. I am a better and more courteous driver. About two weeks ago, someone cut me off on the Interstate to get off at an exit I was also using. That driver could have easily got behind me.I just brushed it off. In the past I would have tried to return the favor by chasing him down and cutting him off.
2. My sex drive has not dropped to zero yet. But, I go weeks without thinking about sex and being driven by that little voice in my head.
3. When I do get in the mood, its more romantic with hugging and cuddling Its less about the physical act. It takes much longer for me to get aroused and get an erection. I have no more spontaneous erections and the sight of things do not cause an erection. But I still get an erection. 
4. My emotions bubble up quicker but I have not started a lot of crying bouts that I have read are coming. But I can tell they are coming. I was listening to my oldies playlist and certain songs did cause my emotions to bubble up. It just happened that certain songs made me so sad and like a volcano, the emotions rose but stopped short of tears. One song did make my cry, not heavy tears, but the song, which I have heard so many times over 40 years, sounded so beautiful. His voice and my memories brought me to tears. I feel my emotions rising as I write this.
5. Recently, when Karen and I get together to see a movie, she has stated that I seem more relaxed and content.

Overall I am changing inside as well at outside. The outside changes are easier to see and document. The inside changes are harder to pickup because I think they are more subtle.