But, I guess it really started at age 8 in 1964, when I remember trying on my mother's shoes and girdle with stockings. I have what is now know as gender dysphoria. It shaped my life in so many ways.
By age 54, I just figured it was time to complete the journey. So, I began by losing a lot of weight via cardio and changing my what I ate. I went from a waist of 45 to 30. My lowest weight was 160. I am about 175, which is a good weight for me. My female dress size dropped to an 8/10. I am a 10/12 which is a good size.
I then spend 4 years getting beard removed by electrology. I spend 2 years at E3000 in Dallas and the last 2 years locally, I could still use some clean up work. Maybe another year, going once a month for less than 1 hr each session.
I discovered how times had changed and it was not a big issue. I think the general public's exposure thru the internet and media and has turned crossdressing into "no big deal".
Finally in June 2016 at almost, 60 years old, I started HRT with the thought of living full-time as Susan King.
However, what I discovered is that the changes brought on my HRT have brought me to a very satisfying place, 18 month later.
I will always have dyshporia, but the physical and mental changed brought on my HRT, have brought me to a very happy place that is short of full-time living.
Physically, I love how I look and feel. Getting up every morning and looking at a woman in the mirror and having to put on a bra because my breasts hurt is very satisfying.
PRE_HRT
Crying at emotional events and memories is satisfying.
I no longer follow sports and enjoy a good emotional movie or show.
I now dress as either male or female, based on how I feel that day. But I know I am female inside. I finally feel comfortable with myself. I am not longer driven to find the time to dress or be woman. I am one.
I am going to rest and enjoy this stop. This maybe the final stop on my journey and if so, I am going to build a great life right here.
This will be my last blog post. I started on April 08, 2014.
I thought I would continue many years. But after 1,163 Posts and 437,000+ pageviews, its time.
I use to wonder why ladies would transition and stop. Now I know why.
Thank you for following. There maybe updates in the future.
P.S.: Thank you for all of the positive emails. Just like Stana's blog helped me, I am glad I was able to help others. The comments on this post and the emails were extremely nice and appreciated.
