Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Tuesday June 30, 2015 - Makeup results

Yesterday, I decided to play around with makeup. I need to start practicing for when I start going out as Susan. I learned basic makeup in the early 1990's, as a member of Tri-Ess. There was an Avon lady who's husband was a member and she gave lessons.

I bought my first set of makeup from her but over the next few years I switched to Fashion Fair and got pretty good. I spent one week in both 1994 and 1996 on vacation in Hilton Head as Susan. I even went out, a few times with my friend Maxine. Also a few time in the early 2000's, I spent a few weekends out.

However with my children going off to college, starting in 2002 and my father and in-laws passing (2004, 2006 & 2009), I had to put Susan back in the closet. So for about 10 years (1991 thru 2002), I was getting pretty good with makeup.

Well now, 13 years later, I am getting back into it. So yesterday, I put on a full face. I tried it both with and without foundation.

The above picture is my final photo with full makeup that included foundation and a Susan wardrobe.

First the makeup.

The first set of photos are without foundation and the second row is with foundation. I took photos with and without glasses.

In the next two photos, I am wearing foundation. My current foundation is very old but the color is correct, I just need a new bottle along with some new setting powder. I want to try primer under my foundation, but I do not have any. I will go to Ultra Beauty to buy a tube.

My camera is not that good and you may not be able to tell the difference, but I like the foundation (second row of pictures) best. Also, I like the glasses. I bought them (they are a female pair) for this reason. I wanted them big so they would help frame my face and make it appear rounder and smaller. (read post about buying my glasses)

Except for the foundation in the second set of pictures, my makeup was the same.

One thing I noticed right away was that without a beard, makeup was much easier and faster. With a beard, I use to complete a close shave and wait a few minutes for my face to dry. Then I would have to put on the beard cover to neutralize the color of the beard shadow. Finally adding foundation would take time to make sure it covered and blended over the beard cover. So right away, the long beard removal time was worth it. My makeup routine was faster and I needed less foundation (In the second set of picture). As I quickly approach 60 years young, I noticed women, my age wear less makeup and foundation. So with my beard mostly gone, its easier for me to reach that goal.

I like to start at the top and work my way down. So I completed my eyebrows first with my brown pencil. I frame them and lighten them with the pencil.

Moving to the eyes, I played around with lighter colors except for the crease in at the top of my eye lid in which I add a dark color. I add a lighter color at the upper corner, just under the eyebrows to give them lift. I do not have to pluck my eyebrows because I had electrology on them in the 1990's, so now they have a "natural" arch and shape.

I blend my eye shadow and then add eyeliner. I used a black liner, I recently bought from CVS with a coupon. I need to work on added eyeliner but I put in on the top and bottom with a slight upward wing at the outer point. Finally, I added my mascara. Because I wear it often, I had no trouble putting it on

I found a possible solution for the bags under my eyes. Its based on a second lighter colored foundation along the dark crease under the bags. When I buy a new bottle of foundation, I am going to by a second lighter concealer to hide the bag's shadow. See Video

I added blush to the apple of my cheek and blended it upward around my eyes and downward onto my cheek. I need to buy a darker color as a second blush to place on my cheeks and blend upward, just under the first blush. I am eventually going to try the recommendation of the picture below.

Finally I add my lipstick. I like this part the best. For some reason, I love to put on lipstick. I use a pencil to line my lips and fill them in. I was told by the Avon lady decades ago that the pen helps define the lips and by adding it to the lips, it sets the lipstick, once I add the lipstick over the pencil. I add the lipstick and then place some lip gloss at the center of my bottom lip. Then I slightly press my lips together. Finally, I slightly press my lips on paper to remove the excess.

I did an OK job. My goal is to wear makeup but have it look light and barely noticeable.

I decided to get dressed up and take some pictures in one of my nice dresses. I will show those photos in tomorrow's post.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Monday June 29, 2015 - Wearing Makeup

I am working from home today. I am going to take a couple of hours this afternoon, to play with my makeup. As a Femboy, I wear lipstick, blush, mascara and eyebrow pencil. But its been years since I did a complete face with foundation.

I do not have an electrology session this week and my facial hair is very thin, even after a week of no shaving. So I can give a quick light shave this morning and play with my makeup this afternoon.

I hope I will not end up like the guy in the above picture.

I want to look like the guy in the picture below. I want a day look that does not look like a lot of makeup. Wish me luck.

I am going to take many pictures and provide a detailed post tomorrow.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Sunday June 28, 2015 - Not finished yet

With the excitement of the recent Supreme Court marriage decision, our community still has work to do.

It is getting better. Society is getting more accepting and is moving in the right direction. But we must continue to fight for our rights and the rights of future members of our community.

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Saturday June 27, 2015 - Amazing

Yesterday was an amazing day. In my opinion it will be one of days that goes into the history books. Definitely in my history book. For me it a day of happiness for the future and sadness (tears) for my ancestors and friends who were not here to enjoy the moment with me.

In the morning, was the rulling concerning same-sex marriage and in the afternoon was the funeral of Rev. Pinckney.

SCOTUS approved same-sex marriage. In 11 short years, same-sex marriage went from a wedge issue used by President Bush to a fundamental right for all Americas.

In a previous blog, I discussed my older cousin (by 3 years) who in 1969 came out in 9th grade as transgendered. I was in middle school at the time as he wore "female clothes" to high school. It was a big issue in the family as his father threw him out of the house. My Dad was School Board President at the time. I do not know what he did politically but my cousin was thrown out of high school. I do remember my Dad helping him find a place to life and helped him through out his life which ended in the early 1980's from complication due to AIDS.

Also, in 2014, I lost one of my best friends, a gay male who loved to dress as a women when clubbing. (See post).He always wanted to get married. He had a live in boy friend for about the first decade I knew him. During the last year of his life, he was caring for his sick father. I used male pronouns because he did not consider himself transgendered. I would label him a Femboy.

I miss them both and would have loved to have talked to them yesterday. So I did, in a prayer last night.

President Obama's singing of Amazing Grace at South Carolina State Senator Clementa Pinckney funeral. I wish my Grandparents and my Father were here so I could talk to them about it. They were members of the AME church.

For me, I think of history. I have been reading a set of books about the oral history of U.S. slaves. To create jobs during the Depression, the FDR administration created the Federal Writer's Project from 1936-1938. During that period more than 2,300 first-person accounts about slavery were recorded. These accounts can be found in free books on Amazon. (Link to one book).

His singing of that song not only made me miss my relatives but I though about the hundreds of years in which thousands of people, against their will were marched across that same parcel of land into a life of hardship and misery.

Yet as a county, we now have a President who is a descendant of slaves talking to descendants of both slaves and slave owners and singing together.

Wow, what a day. What a county!

Friday, June 26, 2015

Friday June 26, 2015 - Hair

The crown jewel of any women's presence, is her hair. I started losing my hair in my late 20's. It comes from the mother's side of the family. My mother has the recessive gene. Most of her mother's uncles were bald. I am a 7 on the Norwood scale of 1 to 7. I am really an 8. Lol

So I need to wear a wig. I do not have enough hair to have a successful transplant.

But that is Ok, I have gynecomastia (enlarged breasts on men) which was a curse growing up. But now it more than makes up for my hair loss. Its funny how things workout.

I even had my sister laughing when I talked about it. When I was young, I use to pray every night to be a girl. Then I started to grow breasts and I got scared because the praying was working. As you may know, my sister is very religious.

I went wig shopping and realized that the right wig makes the face look very feminine. I tried on many wigs and the right ones were obvious. Link to that post.

Below is my pinterest board about hair styles I like and do not like.

Follow Susan King's board Hair on Pinterest.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Thursday June 25, 2015 - My feminizing Day

Every two weeks, I like to take a 1/2 day or full day working on my feminizing routine. I needed to spend only 1/2 day because I had work to complete this afternoon.

So this morning I took my nice warm bubble bath with Skin-so-soft. During this bath, I did a complete body shave. I decided to watch the 3rd episode of New Girls on the Block while I relaxed and shaved. I love the feel after my bath. I enter the shower to soap up and wash my body to make sure all of the loose hair is gone. I also check to make sure I did not miss an area.

After my shower, I complete my daily morning lotion routine. I love the way I look and feel. Next I move on to my hands. This week, my nails look nice. I bought a better clear polish that is still on my nails from my last manicure. I worked hard to not break my nails and I only lost the nail on my right thumb. My nails are getting a little long, so I decided to remove the remaining nail polish and file my nails down just a little. Also they need a little shaping.This is a before picture of my nails

My pedicure is still acceptable but I will probably get one next week. I can tell my nails are growing and taking the polish with them. But the polish itself has not chipped or cracked.

So I decided to leave my feet and toes alone. Now I did use petroleum jelly to lotion my feet after my shower. But nothing else today.

I decided to do a lemon peel facial and exfoliate. I love the feel of my face after my lemon facial. I take a lemon slice and squeeze the juice out. Then I rubbed the slice over my face until my face is covered with juice and pulp.

I waited a few minutes before I washed my face. It feels so smooth after I wash my face. Then I rubbed liquid Vitamin E on my face.

I am going to put on my nice soft lounge outfit and watch episode four of New Girls on the Block. Then I will get back to work.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Wednesday June 24, 2015 - Yesterday I told my son-in-law

Yesterday, I had a very good electrology session.The amount of regrowth continues to reduce. Also the lemon facials are clearing my skin, especially under my neck.

I had so much work to do that I decided not to go shopping but to work at home. I stayed dressed and worked upstairs in my office.

My son-in-law came in from work alittle early. He usually gets home by 4 pm. But it was 3:30 pm and I was still working.

In the past he suspected something because he asked by daughter about a pair of skinny jeans I was wearing one day.

So I decided to tell him. I walked downstairs and said hello and asked him how is day was. Without missing a beat he said fine. I sat down at the kitchen table with him and told him I was a crossdresser and had been since I was 8.

He said Ok and that he did not have a problem with it because he had a friend from High School who transitioned into a women about three years ago.

He thought that might be the case because of the jeans I was wearing one day.

I told him that after they move next May, I will wear female clothes more often. I did not get into my future too much. I just figured that I wanted him too know in case he came home early again and that if he brought the children home with him, to text me and let me know.

At this point, my daughter and I both agreed that we do not want the grand children to know until they are a little older.

I went back upstairs and continued working.

Later last night I went to the gym.

Today, I am in boy mode because I have a day long meeting in North Georgia with a client.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Tuesday June 23, 2015 - Electrology Session

Today is my bi-monthly electrology session. I do not have many hairs left but they now grow longer over the two week period. During the last session, my technician stated that my hairs were long and asked me to cut then but not shave them when I return. Which is today.

So last night I tried to cut the hairs down. I was tough to get the ones under my neck. My cheeks are clear and my mustache area does not have many left. But underr my neck is where the bulk of the hairs remain.

I am going to spend the day dressed, but I can not go out long because I have have so much work to complete.

It is so hot in Atlanta, I need some more capris and light weight blouses. I want to go to Goodwill, but I need to work. I may go to one store for about two hours. Tuesday is Senior Day and I receive a 25% discount.

Today is sunny and hot. So I am wearing yellow with green today. I love these yellow skinny jeans. I am wearing a green and blue flowery blouse. I put my short-sleeve green top over the blouse and added my green hat with green earrings.

My necklace has the yellow stone as a pendant and my bracelets are green and yellow shells on one arm and my new favorite silver bracelet on the other.

I had to wear brown shoes. I need more flats for a better selection.

But I like the look today.

The picture below shows my pendant. Of course its the top one in the picture. I bought it on St Simons Island in Georgia.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Monday June 22, 2015 - Back In Atlanta

I got back to Atlanta on Sunday morning via the Megabus. I left Saturday night at midnight and arrived in Atlanta at 7:45 am.

The one-way fare was only $18.00. You can not beat that price. I watched a Redbox movie and then slept most of the way. They have a 30 minute food break after 4 hours.

I used Megabus many times when I went to Dallas for my e3000 electrology sessions. I enjoy the trips because I can get work done with the electricity and some WIFI (when in big cities).

I then took the Atlanta transit train (MARTA) to the airport where I was picked and had a Father's Day breakfast at Golden Corral.

After breakfast, I spent some time with my children and took a long nap.

I talked to my two oldest daughters about my sister. They got mad and threatened to call her. She is their favorite aunt and they were disappointed.. However, I told them to give her some more time and lets see what happens. I am not sure if there will be a positive outcome, but I told my daughters that I am OK with it and you can not force people to accept things. Just let them have time to think about it. In the meanwhile, I will keep moving forward.

After my nap, I went to the gym to burn off some of that food I eat while in Orlando.

Then I talked to my middle daughter about her boyfriend of three years. Just some fatherly advise. Tomorrow, I am going to take him to buy a car. This will be his first time buying a new car and I am going to teach him some of my tricks. Plus this will give me a chance to talk to him about some issues my daughter brought up.

So Monday will be a boy mode day. Tuesday will be a Femboy day as I have bi-monthly electrology session and I need to shop for a few more female tops.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Sunday June 21, 2015 - Happy Father's Day

Which picture best represents your Father's Day? For me, this year, it's Number 2.

Number One

 Number Two

Number Three

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Saturday June 20, 2015 - Continued talking to my sister

Last night my sister and I continued or discussion about my gender fluidity.

She still believes a spirit causes this but does not believe exorcism will cure it. She things the spirit entered me 50 years ago when causing my internal issue.

One of the problems with people who believe in strict adherence to a rigid religion is that you can not use logic to show inconsistency in their believes.

 Ok, let's say she is correct, that 50 years ago a spirit contacted me and talked me into wanting to become a girl. Who says that is wrong? Why does that spirit have to come from the "devil" and not God? In other words, why is that spirit evil.

As I said in a previous post, I believe my gender fluidity is a gift (blessing) and not a curse. So I believe the spirit is good.

Whether the spirit is good or evil is based on your core cultural believes. Throughout history other cultural have had transgendered people and many of those cultures welcomed them (some Native American cultures)

The U.S. and other European cultures are now finding acceptance for the lgbtq community.

My sister could not accept that line of reasoning. Which is, the "spirit" is good or evil based on your actions. My second "spirit" has helped me become a better, more caring and understanding person. So the spirit must be labeled good.

Just because I want to wear items in the closet that are not "allowed" due to cultural bias, does not make the "spirit" evil.

Well, we agreed to disagree. But we still love each other.

I asked her, if she would like to see or accept me in my Femboy or woman mode. She said no. Just like my Dad, 20 years ago.

Too bad, it probably means seeing her less as my transition continues. I can see in the future, if she does not change her mind, we will only talk on the phone. That is too bad but I can accept that.

It will be up to her.

Friday, June 19, 2015

Friday June 19, 2015 - Second talk with my sister, did not go so well.

I am in Orlando to visit my mother. I am staying with my sister and arrived last night. After an few minutes, we started talking about my grender fluidity.

Here is the link to the post about our first talk.

My assumption about how my sister dealt with my admission was not accurate. I though she was fine with it. She did not respond in a negative way.

She is not distant with me and is the type of person who is always nice. It's her "bedside manner" as a dentist (maybe chairside manner?) that helps make her always appear friendly and she truly is a nice person. I think she is too nice and people take advance of her.

But like my Dad, she does not externally show when things upset her. But now I beleive as I transition toward Susan, the more I show my outside femininity, the less  comfortable she will become.

It's tough for me to admit, but I will probably see her less. Especially, once my mother passes.

She stated that for two weeks after we talked on April 5, 2015, she was stressed out. She could not sleep and had a hard time concentrating on her work. That is why she would text me and ask me random things about crossdressing, transgenderism and how I felt about Caitlyn Jenner.

Finally, she discussed it with people at her office. The people at the office told her it was OK and she should be happy that I am happy. One person was a Scientologist and stated that they believe in a form of reincarnation and that sometimes the female spirit can end up in a male body for one of its "lives".

(I need to investigate that Scientology theory more to see their beliefs toward gender fluidity.)

It did not bother me that she discussed this issue with her office staff. I like it because the more people talk and learn, the better it is for our community. Polls show that the people who know someone who is transgendered have a more positive attitude about the issue.

The problem came in when she started talking to her Christian friends. My sister and brother-in-law are very religious and "born again". They belong to a small church and preach part-time.

Asking her friends in that community was not so helpful, for me. They stated that I have a second spirit in me that needs to be prayed away. My response was that maybe the male spirit is the second spirit. No, God does not make mistakes and the first spirit is the one that matches your body. So, having a male body means that my main spirit is male and the second spirit is female.

Oh boy!

 Well then I asked about people with birth defects? She said physical defects are not a mistake and God is using them for a reason.

Then how about God using my second spirit for a reason? No, God does not make those mistakes, it's a second spirit that needs to be removed.

She wishes, she knew this about me earlier, because she would have prayed it away.

OMG, is she wanting to perform an exorcism? She did not say that, but she definitely implied it.

You think she can make my head turn around? Lol - Just Damn!

Someone entered the room and we changed the subject. We are going to continue this talk on Friday night. I will let you know in tomorrow's post, how it goes.

This is the first time I told someone and it may affect the relationship.

I may not win her over, but I hope we will be OK.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Thursday June 18, 2015 - Summer Dresses

I love summer time. The hot weather and colorful landscape makes we want to get out and show off all of that hard work keeping the weight off.

Dresses are my favorite attire. However, I am currently not able to get out in woman mode and wear dresses. I am still in Femboy and male modes as I transition my income stream.

Sometimes around the house I will dress up. But it will be 2016 before I am out in woman mode.

Unitil then, I need to learn and practice hair, makeup and voice.

In the meanwhile I have a Pinterest board of the dresses I like best.

Follow Susan King's board Summer Dresses on Pinterest.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Wednesday June 17, 2015 - Past Femboy outfits

I have been out as a Femboy since December 2014. It has been about six months. I created a Pinterest Board with some of my favorite outfits. I enjoyed going back and reviewing my outfits and the experiences of the day.

Follow Susan King's board My Femboy Outfits on Pinterest.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Tuesday June 16, 2015 - Becoming Us

There is a new reality TV show on ABC Family called Becoming Us. Its about a teenage boy who's parents are getting a divorce. At the same time his dad is transitioning into a woman.

The first episode was last Monday, June 8, 2015. The second episode was last night. My oldest daughter told me about the show. I am going to sit down and watch both episodes this weekend. The episodes are online. HERE

An interesting twist to this show is that the teen son has a girlfriend who's father transitioned years ago. I find this intriguing.  How are the two transwomen going to interact with each other, especially with their children dating. Also how will this affect the two teenagers?

Video Clip
There are now many shows, both scripted and non-scripted about our community with positive transgender characters, its hard to keep up. I must remember that there will be good and bad quality shows. But overall this is a very good situation.

I just watched the first episode of  New Girls on the Block, this weekend. All of the episodes are on Youtube. HERE

I liked the first episode and plan on watch the rest. Now this Becoming Us is airing. I do not know if I can watch all of them at the same time..

This is a good problem to have.

The show I am waiting for is the Jazz Jennings show, All That Jazz. I am interested in seeing and learning about the lives of transyouth. I want to compare it to my youth. Of course there is no comparison. But I find it so interesting.

Her family, friends and school interaction with her, is want I want to learn about. The show will premiere  on TLC Channel at 9:00 pm on July 15th.

So we have three shows plus the upcoming show with Caitlyn Jenner on E! making a forth show, our community is suddenly everywhere. I would have never imaging me saying this, but there are too many shows with transgender stars for me to watch during the same time of the year, Lol.

Thank goodness for streaming and binge watching.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Monday June 15, 2015 - My work plate is full

I am not only changing my gender but I am also changing my employment. I "retired" from my job at the end of April and expanded my real estate business. Finally, it is catching up to me and I am getting very busy.

So the next few weeks, I will be working many hours at home.

This will give me change to be in Femboy mode everyday. It will be interesting to see how I handle the daily tasks of dressing and makeup. When I need to go out, I will just grab my purse and go.

I do have to go to CVS to pick up a few things, sometime today. But for the most part I will he home working until I hit the gym tonight.

I am going to Orlando later this week, to see my mother and I will stay with my sister and her husband. My sister and I will talk some more about my transition and I am going to talk to my brother-in-law.

Here is my outfit for the day.

I love those white capris. I added blue and silver as my colors today. I have a blue, white and grey top and my black flats with the gold zipper. My hat is silver and white.

This is a nice summer outfit for a very warm day. If I do need to get out, I can just go.

My jewelry includes:
blue pendant with a silver chain,
  1. blue stud earrings, 
  2. silver ankle bracelet, 
  3. silver bracelet on one hand, white
  4. blue bracelets on the other hand.and 
  5. four rings - (2) with a silver base and (2) with some gold and silver

I was running late today, but will be back on schedule tomorrow.


Sunday, June 14, 2015

Sunday June 14, 2015 - Natural and healthy summer glow

Having that glowing skin is an important female trait. I work hard to have a clean and natural look. Both of my electrologists and the sales lady at Ultra Beauty compliment me on my skin.

They use words like clear, natural, glowing and smooth. Those words make my maintenance routine worth it.

I use natural products based on articles, subreddit group comments and youtube videos.

Today, I want to discuss a new routine I do every two weeks for my face. It works because I can feel how smooth my face feels and it looks great. Also my skin color under my neck is clearing.

Every two weeks, I exfoliate my face using a natural lemon. I take a lemon slice and squeeze the juice out of it. Then I rub the lemon slice over my face many times until my face is wet with lemon juice and pulp.I let it sit on my face about a minute or until I feel it beginning to tingle.

Once it starts tingling, I wipe my face clean. Then I use my homemade lotion to add back that facial glow.

Click this link to find out more about my homemade lotion.

I also completed a full body shave followed by a shower to wash off the hair shavings that stuck to my body. Lotion was added after my shower. I feel so nice and soft today.

It's summertime and having glowing skin is very important. I think using natural products, helps. So I stay away from store bought products that have a lot of preservatives and additives.

I not only monitor what I put inside my body but what I put on the outside, is just as important.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Saturday June 13, 2015 - Transition Timelines

I am a reddit fan. What is reddit?

Reddit, is an entertainment, social networking, and news website where registered community members can submit content, such as text posts or direct links, making it essentially an online bulletin board system. (Wikipedia)

Reddit consists of thousand of subreddits, which are communities built around a particukar subject. I subscribe to many subreddits that discuss many gender fluid issues. Along the right column of this blog, below my list of favorite blog posts,  is a set of links to some of my favorite subreddits.

One of my favorite subreddits, is the transtimelines. This group consists of people transitioning and showing both before and current pictures.

These timelines show the power of transitioning and differences over time. One problem for me is that many of the members are young and under 30 years old. The changes are dramatic and starting younger helps.

My question is the impact on people when they start older?

So I went through recent (within 1 year) submissions to find timelines in which transition started at over 45 years of age.

Below are three four of the best. It shows that mature ladies can start transition at the 45+ age and will still have good results.

I like this transition because she started at my age and the results are great.

General Comments

I like this timeline because the before and after is so dramatic. I love her style.

I added a second picture to show her great style.

General Comments

Another lady around my age with great results.

Here is a link to a blog post she wrote on femulate.org

General Comments

Friday, June 12, 2015

Friday June 12, 2015 - Hormone Replacement Therapy

I have been learning about hormone replacement therapy (HRT) for many years. I have been interested in this since the 1980's. However, until my transition started, HRT was only a dream. But this dream is becoming a reality.

I understand that HRT is serious and that once you begin, its a lifetime commitment unless you want to stop transitioning.

Hormones are very powerful and have a tremendous mental and physical impact on you. Of course, I am excited about the physical changes. But its the mental changes that will have the greatest early impact.

I have found a Doctor in Atlanta that provides treatment to transwomen. I am now a patient but I am not in the transgender clinic. I go for an annual check up. Next year, I will ask to join that part of the practice and by then, they will have a few years of my medical history.

For my research, I subscribe to a yahoo group called:  Ts Do It Yourself Hormones.

Now I am not recommending that you self-medicate. But the group is active with 57 messages in the late week. There are ladies who both self-medicate and/or see a doctor. The good thing about this group is the knowledge base.

You can learn about the various hormone types, delivery system (pills, patch, gels or injection), doses and results. After years of reading the messages, I have decided to take injections, which are recommended for ladies over 50. I will add Dutasteride which blocks testosterone from making DHT. The injected female hormones are strong enough to overtake the testosterone and therefore I am not planing  on taking Spironolactone.

I am about 1 year away and will continue to research this issue.

Also below is a good short video about HRT.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Thursday June 11, 2015 - Told my youngest daughter

Yesterday, I picked up my youngest daughter from the airport. She is in town for a few days. Currently she is a T.V. reporter in a small mid western town. She has three offers from southern city TV stations which will allow her to move up to a larger market and back to warm weather.

She wanted me to take her to her favorite hot wing restaurant. So we ordered our food and decided to sit down to eat.

I figured this was the best time.

So I told my daughter that I am a crossdresser and  I have been one since I was 8 years old. She looked at me and said she knew. She found out while she was in high school around 2007 at 16 years old. She was not going to say anything to anyone.

Wow, like my oldest daughter, they knew but said nothing. I thought I was going a good job in the closet, but two of my daughters found out. I wondered how they found out.

This time I had to ask.

"How did you find out?"

My daughter stated that she found my old photo album (from the 1990's) and saw the pictures from my days at Tri-Ess and my vacations in the 1990's. In 2007, I was travelling between Atlanta and Ledyard, CT and had an apartment in Mystic CT. I must have left my album out while moving clothes and items between both residences.

She then went on the say that she was proud of me for telling her. Being a TV reporter, she wanted my history. So I spent the next hour talking about my gender issues from 8 years old to 58 years old.

She then asked if I considered myself a crossdresser or transgendered. I told her I am more transgendered than a crossdresser because I had mt beard removed (almost) and plan on HRT in 2016. However, I doubt I will have SRS surgery.

She told me that since Caitlyn Jenner, she had been studying the issue and learned that there was a difference between gender and sexual orientation. So she then asked if I considered my self heterosexual, bisexual or homosexual.

Thant's my girl, she is going to be a good interviewer.

I told her I am attracted to the female body and persona but after I start HRT, I maybe come curious about men. Currently, I am not attracted physically to men.

Her best friend from kindergarden came out as a lesbian at 13 years old (2004). My daughter stated that she was the only one of her friends that remained close friends with her. They are still close today.

My daughter considers me the greatest father ever and would support what ever I chose to do.

So, I showed her this blog, which she will follow and I showed her some of my pictures as a Femboy.

This daughter is very prissy and into fashion and everything feminine. She remembers growing up how I always supported her prissiness. She wants to go shopping with me as Susan and will help me with my makeup, wardrobe and style.

We both agree that in my wigs, we look alike. I noticed from my recent wig shopping trip, that I do have features like this daughter.

I think she was more excited that me. But I told her I was happy that she has embraced me and I will definitely take her up on her offer.

I do not think we can do it on this trip because we have so many activities between Thursday and Sunday, when she leaves.

I have three daughters and even though each support me, each had a different positive reaction. I think this daughter will become the closet to my new female persona. Our styles are similar along with our overall look.

I am excited to share my feminine gender with this daughter and I consider myself luck to have such caring and supportive children

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Wednesday June 10, 2015 - Hanging out with my brother

Yesterday was my electrology session. This was my first session in the new two week cycle. During the weekly sessions, my tech was down to 45 minutes to clear my face. We both agreed adjust my schedule to every two weeks.

After this first two week cycle, it took about 80 minutes to clear my face. Most of my growth in under the center of my neck. There was very little along the sideburn and cheek area. Also there is not much in the mustache area. Even just a few hairs in that mustache area and with numbing cream my eyes still water.

One problem was waiting two weeks allowed my hairs to grow too long. I was asked to trim my hairs (do not shave them) before I return in two weeks. That is going to be tough under my neck, but I will do it about 5 days before my next appointment on the 23rd of June.

We had a nice general talk and I practiced my voice. I am going to start lessons soon. I have been reading about voice work. I think I need a voice coach in the beginning to help me with feedback and confidence building. Then its just a matter of practice.

I put on my makeup after my session because my watering eyes cause my mascara to run and the work around my lips rub off my lip gloss.

I have started wearing lipstick and adding gloss for sheen. You may have noticed it over the last few pictures. I was trying it out first and of course there was no reaction from the public. Lipstick is now a new must when out in Femboy mode.

I am using an older lipstick color. I am going to go lipstick shopping and update my color to a more subtle red. This red is not bad but I its a little off to me. I do not know what I want, but like my wigs, I will know it once I try it.

Once I put on my makeup, I decided to go visit my brother and wait on the movie. I went to Wendy's first to order lunch. I went inside and there was a good size lunch crowd. I ordered a small chili, side salad and a double stack hamburger. Because I did not have breakfast, I needed more calories. So the double stack hamburger added 460 calories to my chili salad of 200 calories. That is more calories than I like in one meal. Normally, I like to keep calorie count around 400. I would have had a small chili, side salad and a kids frosty (treat). 

I spent the day with my brother at his condo working on a presentation and talking with him about his new cell phone repair business.

We had a good time and enjoyed working with him. He is now use to this appearance and we no longer discuss it or he seems to has no more questions about it. Last time I hung out with him, we went out and he appeared to have no issue with being with me in this mode.

I am lucky to have a brother who loves me no matter what.

Next week, I am going to see my mother and I will stay with my sister. She has more questions, so we will talk and I may tell my brother-in-law. That talk will be interesting because I consider him very religious. He is always talking about religion, Jesus and God. He does some part-preaching and they go to a very small a conservative church.

I look forward to that discussion because we have gotten along well over the decades.  

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Tuesday June 9, 2015 - Electrology Day

It's electrology day! I now go every two weeks. So last week, I did not go and I missed it. I am not a glutton for punishment, because it does sting and the mustache area makes my eyes tear.

However, I had been going every week, no-stop since early January and I missed going.

I do not know what I am going to do after  I finish my session. I might go visit my brother or use a free pass to go see that earthquake movie with Dwayne Johnson (The Rock).

Monday, June 8, 2015

Monday June 8, 2015 - TG Vanity Fair covers

The Vanity Fair cover with Caitlyn Jenner has created a frenzy of imitations.

Tumblr user Crystal Frasier and roommate Jenn Dolari were the first to spearhead this campaign

— Crystal Frasier
June 4, 2015
I made templates for all trans folk. Download! Share! Tag! #MyVanityFairCover

Here is a slide show of some of the covers submitted. Admire the beautiful diversity within our community.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Sunday June 7, 2015 - Rest of Tuesday

After I left the nail salon on Tuesday, I was getting hungry. I notice when out in Femboy mode, I do not eat. I am just not hungry. That is not good for my system because a lack of food puts my body in starvation mode and my metabolism slows.

So, I need to get something to eat quickly. I decided to go to Racetrac and get a hamburger with some sliced apples. Once I reached the store, I parked up toward the front door and entered the store.

I went to the food area to get a frozen hamburger and a package of sliced apples. Then, I went to the condiment section to warm up the hamburger. The store manager came around the corner and said hello. I returned the greeting. I separated the meat from the bread and threw away the cheese. Once I warmed the bread, I added the condiments to the bread while I waited for the meat to warm. Once warmed, I used a tissue to soak up any excess grease. I put the hamburger back together and went to the soda fountain to get a cup of ice water.

The manager was operating the cash register and asked me if I found everything. I said yes and paid for the food. I denied a request for a bag. The manager referred to me as ma'am during the entire transaction. It felt good. But I  was wondering if the feminine thing to do was was to take the bag and let him put my food in the bag?.

While walking to the car, I was wondering why the manager was so nice. Referring to me as ma'am and saying hello while I was dressing my hamburger. Was he just being nice and supportive? It crossed my mind but I did not dwell on it. It was nice, I accepted it and I moved on.

While eating in the car, I drove over to the beauty supply shop. This is where I tried on a variety of wigs last week (Read Post). I told the sales lady I was going to come back and tell her which wig I liked.

I did not get back to the store as I promised because I forgot I had to go to court for a traffic ticket.

I finished eating and parked in the shade, along the west side of the building. I walked around to the front entrance and walked in.

My sales lady gave me a warm greeting and we hugged. She makes me feel at home and from the first day we met, I enjoy her company. I showed her this blog and we watched my wig slide show.

It came down to the two wigs above. The problem with the wig on the left is the area around the part. How that sits on my head, makes it look like a wig. My sales lady stated that the wig is in a lace-front style that will eliminate that problem.

So we talked about wigs and I opened up to her about my experience at the shop and I how much I appreciated her and her other clients embraced me and that they taught me so much. I did not explain that they taught me more than just wig stuff but about female socialization.

The other sales lady came by and I asked her about her upcoming wedding and how I was turning into a wig addict just like her. We laughed and joked about my sales lady being an "illegal" wig dealer getting ladies addicted to wigs.

I did not purchase a wig. I told her I was coming back next Tuesday to buy one of the two wigs. I am leaning toward the wig with the shorter hair length (right). But I still do not know. I may end up with both.

I had so much fun Tuesday. I have two sets of friends who only know me as Susan. Both sets are ladies and I enjoy their company. I know I am their client and so its partly good marketing on their part. But for me, I am learning and gaining more confidence in my presentation, voice skills and socialization.

My transition continues.