October 31, 2017 - Happy Halloween

Monday October 30, 2017 - I am changing

It's HRT month 17, and I am changing. I seem to be settling in and its getting hard for me find things to write about. I no longer have that internal drive to dress.

HRT affects everyone differently. For me, it has stopped my dysphoria. My body has adjusted to the meds and the results are very good. Mentally, I like where I am and how I feel.

But it makes it difficult for me to find subject' matter to post because it's not something I think about that much anymore.

I have not purchased any new (or used) woman clothes or shoes in months. I tried to get out and shop for my female wardrobe, but I do not really care.

I just might wear something cute, from my closet because I feel like it. But it's not a driving force.

I can now concentrate more on business and social activities without feeling stressed, upset or envious.

I have learned to not fail too much when presenting as a man. But I really do not care. I feel great and I know I look great. That is what matters.

Friday October 27, 2017 - New TV show with 5 Transgender actor

Ryan Murphy's 'Pose' Casts Record Number of Trans Actors for '80s NYC Drama

October 26, 2017 - Finding that right Perfume

I need to update my perfume. I have worn Elizabeth Taylor's Passion for ever. Probably at least 2 decades. Its time for me to find that "perfect" perfume for Susan at 60+ with an "estrogen body".

Below is a short video on how to find that perfume. I personally like water. I want to retire around water and my vacations include water (beach, pool or lake). So I am going to shop for a new perfume this month.

October 25, 2017 - Dreams do come true. This is the Matrix. You can create any future you desire.

My February 8, 2015 Post:

For over forty years, I dreamed of being female. When I look down, this is what I want to see. 

http://satinminions.com/img/First-Person-Pink-Lace-Bra.html

One day soon, HRT will make my wish come true.

http://satinminions.com/img/FirstPersonBE1-2b.html

Today, 32 months later, my dream is a reality.

Tuesday October 24, 2017 - Busy weekend

I did not post this past Saturday or Sunday. I was so busy working. But I did had some fun.

I went to my first haunted house. It was not a "house" but an old warehouse turned into a "prison"  which was taken over my evil spirits and crazy people. 

They did a good job with the special effects. Especially the guy running around with the chainsaw.

One of the patients tied to the wall in the hospital wing.

 He was walking around looking for the entrance into the prison and escorted you in.













Sometime, you just need a break and have some fun.

Monday October 23, 2017 - Finally got Blood work results

I had a busy weekend and did not get a chance to post. On Saturday I finally received a by "snail mail" (USPS), a paper file containing my blood work result.

My Testosterone is:
low by male standards at 165.5 ng/dL (male range 348 - 1197) - high by MTF standards (30 - 100)

My Estrogen is:
High by male standards at 77.5 pg/mL (male range 7.6 - 42.6) - normal by MTF standards (< 200)

I am going to keep tract of my results for my own knowledge and understanding.

Friday October 19, 2017 - Bush Gardens denies Transwoman entry for Halloween event

Transgender woman not allowed to enter Busch Gardens theme park

You must be this confused to work here. A transgender woman hoping to attend Busch Gardens' "Howl-o-Scream" event Saturday was told she couldn't enter the Williamsburg, Va. theme park because a security guard supposedly felt her skirt constituted a costume.

Wednesday October 18, 2017 - Planned Parenthhod and the transgender community.

My Doctor recommended that I go to Planned Parenthood for my mammogram. I was surprised. I knew they had some services for the transgender community, but my Doctor told that they have a very supportive environment, lower fees for cash paying patients and atleast in Atlanta expanding services.

Planned Parenthood Fills Need For Trans Health Services

For people seeking transgender health services in Peoria, Illinois, chances are the first person they'll talk to is Dana Garber. Garber is the transgender hormone intake coordinator at the Peoria Planned Parenthood, the only clinic in the area that offers hormone-replacement therapy for people seeking gender transition.

Tuesday October 17, 2017 - Adding false Eyelashes

There are so many false eyelash styles. I have three pair in my makeup kit. I have not worn any lately, but they do make a big difference.

My problem is learning how to properly apply them.

Below is a good short video on how to apply these lashes. I recommend you buy an inexpensive pair and take some girl time playing around with them.

Monday October 16, 2017 - Finally a cool fall light rainy day.

This morning is a cool rainy day that will allow me to wear some fall clothes.

Simple rules for finding the best sweater style for your body type. - Northern Connection Magazine

By Suzanne Mauro, AICI It's fall and that means it's time to bust out the heavier clothes. You certainly do not want to look too chunky or bulky by choosing the wrong sweater for your body this season.

Sunday October 15, 2017- Buying a female winter coat

Finally, some cool weather. Here is a good video (a little long) about buying a winter coat. I have a couple of coats in my closet. But I am planning on adding another coat to my wardrobe this winter.

Friday October 13, 2017 - Doctor's Appointment

Today I had my quarterly Dr.'s appointment. It went very well and I am very excited.

First, my readies were fine. Even my A1C readings were down from a very poor 11.5 to an 8.2. On the same day, I had taken a home test which came in at 8.0. So I will start using  the home test monthly.

I was given the option to change my daily medicine dosage. My prescription for estradiol was doubled, so I can increase from 4 mg to 8 mg over the next month, to see what feels best for me. Also, I can adjust my spironolactone down to 100 mg. In doing both, I can adjust my internal mixture of male/female hormones that feels best for me.

Finally, I was told to start getting an annual mammogram. He recommended Planned Parenthood. I am so exciting to finally have to get one. Its like a stamp of womanhood.

I was finished within an hour and walked out on cloud nine. Everything I wanted to accomplish with this appointment occurred.

1. My A1C readings are coming down. I need to be in the 5.0 - 6.0 range. I think I can get there by early 2018.
2. I can adjust my medication. So, I am going to start getting my own test, to see what mixture works best for me.
3. I need a mammogram!!!

Below are a couple of additional pictures.

Thursday October 12, 2017 - End of 16 Mo HRT measurements

Below are my current measurements and the change since last month. The picture is followed by an explanation and then a table showing the monthly changes since I began HRT,  on June 10, 2016.

The above chart shows my current measurements and the changes over last month. 

From my hips up, my size went down. Now that I have my diabetes under control thru diet, I am beginning to control my calories again, and my size is going down.

I do not know why my shoulder measurements went down so much. Unless, I measured wrong.

I think my above breast and breast line went down, not because they are smaller, but that the shape is changing. I think they are "sagging" more. They are getting harder to hind as a male and still filling out 36D bras. They are also moving more.

My under breast and waist went down. I would love to have those two numbers equal out. Maybe my waist come down to a 34 to match my under breast number. That is a nice goal.

Overall, I am keeping my weight and size under control, while controlling my diabetes.

Some of these measurement changes could be due to poor consistency when measuring. However the longer term trends which show in the table below are consistent.

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AREA	00M	12M	13M	14M	15M	16M	17M	18M	19M	20M	21M	22M	23M
SHOULDER	?	42.0	42.5	43.0	43.0	41.0
ABOVE BREAST	37.0	37.0	38.0	38.0	39.0	38.0
BUST LINE	38	40.0	42.0	42.0	42.0	40.0
BRA BAND	36	34.0	34.5	34.5	34.5	34.0
WAIST@BELLY BUTTON	38	35.5	35.5	36.0	35.5	35.0
HIPS	40	39.0	39.0	39.0	39.5	39.0
THIGHS	37.0	37.0	37.0	37.0	36.5	37.0
HIPS VS SHOULDERS	--	3.0	3.5	4.0	3.5	2.0
BUST LINE VS ABOVE BREAST	1.0	3.0	4.0	4.0	3.0	2.0
BUST LINE VS BRA BAND	2.0	6.0	7.5	7.5	7.5	6.0

Wednesday October 11, 2017 - "Boy" a play about gender

Review: In 'Boy,' a Man Deals With Gender Cards He's Given (Not Born With)

The ways in which Money's approach backfired are chronicled in John Colapinto's fascinating book " As Nature Made Him: The Boy Who Was Raised as a Girl" (2001), a grim portrait of a tortured soul. Dealing with the same subject, "Boy" is so determined not to be sensational or bleak that it bleaches itself of troubling complexity.

Tuesday October 10, 2017 - What a weekend.

I have been away a few day and I miss posting. It's been over a decade since I worked  that hard. I had a client that needed help. So, between Thursday and Monday, I worked thru the night twice and slept maybe 5 hours each of the other nights.

When I was in my 30's and 40's, I use to work 2 or 3 days straight without sleep. But in my 60's, it was rough.

Anyway its over, I finished Monday and emailed the report. I slept hard last night, about 9 hours.

Today, I am going to pamper myself and present female. I need to clean up around the house and wash clothes. After all that pressure, I feel comfortable and relaxed.

My Dr. had to reschedule my quarterly appointment until this past Friday. I had to reschedule again for this Friday.I can not wait to talk to him about some issues I am thinking about. The main issue is, ..... what is my ultimate goal under HRT? I want to discuss options.

Today is the start of  Month 17 on HRT.  Wow.

Friday October 6, 2017 - DOJ wants to reverse Transgender work discrimination. WOW!!

Jeff Sessions Just Reversed A Policy That Protects Transgender Workers From Discrimination

US Attorney General Jeff Sessions has reversed a federal government policy that said transgender workers were protected from discrimination under a 1964 civil rights law, according to a memo dated Wednesday to US attorneys across the country and heads of federal agencies.

Thursday October 5, 2017 - New TV Series about Drag

New Series Looks At The 'Hustle And Sacrifice' Of NYC Drag Queens

" RuPaul's Drag Race " may be successfully ushering the glamour of drag culture into the mainstream, but a new documentary series will give viewers a less glitzy, behind-the-scenes peek at the lives of some multitalented, gender-bending stars. HuffPost got an exclusive first look at " Shade: Queens of NYC," which debuts Oct.

Wednesday October 4, 2017 - Transgirl attacked in High School - caught on tape

We must be persistent, even if it means being hurt emotionally or physically. This is the work of small minority of people who hate themselves and take it out on others.

My heart goes out to this teen and her mother.



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The results of this:

7 suspended in wake of attack on transgender student (VIDEO)

NEWARK -- The 14-year-old who was beaten in the hallway of her school is planning to speak to classmates during a string of assemblies this month about her experience as a transgender student. Kylie Perez, a freshman, was attacked last week by classmates in the hallway at East Side High School.

Tuesday October 3, 2017 - Which is your favorite style?

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My favorite style are the hi-cut briefs. Followed by Bikini and Hipsters.

Monday October 2, 2017 - Feeling Strange Today

I woke up this morning and my body feels "off". I do not feel my breasts aching or moving  this morning. I did not have that weighty feeling from them, that has me running to my bra draw.

I just started (last Wednesday) a new bottle of the same prescription. I do not know if this is a normal cycle I am going thru or if the batch of meds are not good.

I is bothering me today, so I am going to bring this up with my Doctor on Thursday. But before Thursday, I am going to call the office nurse.

Sunday October 1, 2017 - Tough night sleeping

Friday night I had a rough night trying to sleep. I now get these restless nights where my body does not calm down enough for me to go to sleep. I am up and might nap a little, then I am back up.

Usually, this includes my beasts becoming very sensitive. Friday night was no different. They were so sensitive last night, it was tough for me to even sleep on my side. I slept on my stomach with a pillow on my breasts or I was on my back.


I have a doctor's appointment Thursday and I am going ask him about this.