Wednesday January 13, 2016 - There seem to be so many of us.

Back in the 1960's as I struggled in my youth (under 14) with "crossdressing", I thought I was the only one. Then in the early 1970's, my cousin came out. The family was not supportive as he was thrown into the streets.

The appropriate labels were unknown to me. I heard gay and crossdresser. Those were the better names.

It was not until the Phil Donahue show in the 1980's, when he began to interview heterosexual crossdressers that I knew I was not alone.

Now with acceptance growing and the internet allowing us to network, it seems there are millions of us. I have read attempts to determine our population. But who knows and I do not care.

But we are many. Here is a Pinterest board showing our beautiful community. I added a few pictures of myself.

Follow Susan King's board Mature and attractive on Pinterest.

Tuesday January 12, 2016 - An amazing family, it brought me to tears.

I saw this family album of a transwoman and her family. Some of these pictures made me cry.

I thought they were so touching and lovely.

Its the kind of family that is now possible and that many of us may have dreamed about. I just wanted to share this album with you.

There are 57 pictures of a wife and her wife with one and then two children.

"A life in pictures of a trans woman from Northern Ontario Canada. A mother, a wife and a loving family :)" by mitagibson in transtimelines

Tuesday January 11, 2016 - Bra Troubleshooting

I found this infographic about fixing problems with your bra. I currently wear a racing bra to keep me flat. I have worn one everyday since 2009.

I will keep this for future use during my breast growth during early (1st 2 years) period of HRT.

Monday January 11, 2016 - 150 days to HRT

Today marks 150 days until I start Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT).  I have been going to this doctor for three years. I changed to him, once I learned he has a good size transgender practice and he administers hormones based the patient signing an informed consent letter.

This past summer, I had my annual physical and told him I would like to start HRT in June 2016. (See post). However at 150 days out, I am ready to start now.

But I am going to stick with my schedule because I need the time to finish my electrology and get my finances in order.

Most people may think we want HRT to get boobs. For me its the emotional side I want back.

When I was young, I cried a lot. I use to cry when I got mad and when I got emotional. At the start of 7th Grade and middle school, I decided I was going to stop crying. In order to do that, I detached myself from my emotions.

Now I want my emotions back. I am trying to let my emotions out more and allow myself to cry.

I want to see brighter colors, have more emotions, and smell more things. The testosterone dulls my senses and I want it to stop. I am looking forward to getting clear and full access to all of my senses.

Of course, I want the physical side. I have gynecomastia (male breasts) and I have had them since puberty. So I am sure they will develop quickly and since I have been use to hiding them for over 40 years, I can hide them until I am ready to stop crossdressing as a male.

My current cardio exercise routine (long time and light resistance) lends itself to a reduced muscle mass. The HRT should reduce my muscle mass further and thus slim me down some more.

At my age, 150 days is just around the corner.

Sunday January 10, 2016 - Tucking in more detail

Saturday evening I posted a short funny cartoon about tucking. If you have ever been in that situation, its not that funny, because it does become uncomfortable. :-}

I currently do not tuck because I wear tops that cover the area. I kind of shift myself and pull back. As a Femboy, I am a feminine male and I try to stay flat, but a temporary budge is OK. I am always checking and if I feel I might see a budge, I will go to my car or find a private place (bathroom or changing room) and adjust myself.

As Susan, I pull back and wear a spandex pair of panties.

I have tucked in the past with tape and placing my testicles up into my body cavity. Both of those solutions can be painful. However with practice, it gets better.

As I said earlier, I use clothes to hide any possible budge that maybe created when my panties do not work.

This post is about tucking. I decided I wanted to have a post which shows some of the options available to us.

There are a variety of options based on our personal physical requirements and how much pain we can tolerate. As a woman, we need to accept a certain amount of pain (or at least being uncomfortable) to be pretty.

1) Rupaul tweeted it best:

Tucking 101: After putting on a tight spandex g-string, push and flatten your penis & testicles in the direction of your anus

— RuPaul (@RuPaul) March 8, 2011

2) I like this video explanation:

3) Here is a discussion from a few years ago on a transgender message board.

The Transgender Boards * View topic - Tucking Yourself...



4) Here is a short article about different tucking solutions.


How to Hide or Tuck for Crossdressing Gaffs


5) Finally a solution from reddit


My balls shoot out of their little holes like rockets. How to tuck? * /r/asktransgender

Any suggestions, please add via the comment section. I am sure it would be appreciated by all.