Saturday November 29, 2014 - Holiday Season

During my youth, my parents attended many black tie events during the Holiday Season (November 20 - January 1). I remember how pretty my mother was. She would come down the stairs and all the kids and dad would say how pretty she was. And we would add how nice my dad looked.

I always wanted to look like Mom. I have been envious of women dressing up for special events.

I dream about spending days or weeks putting together the perfect outfit. Then going to the hairdresser getting my "do" right.

Now you must include a trip to the nail salon for a manicure and pedicure. If you have the time, a spa trip would be added.

Then spending the whole day of the event "femming out" with a bath and doing the little thing before getting dressed.

Finally walking down those stairs and having everyone saying how pretty you are. Its that princess moment.

I am going to have that princess moment. And I can not wait.

Friday November 28, 2014 - Not feeling fem today

I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving. I did but I eat too much. You know how we girls feel after overeating.

In earlier posts I talked about working out to get ready for thanksgiving. In the 25 days leading up to turkey day, I worked out 19 days. During those 19 days, I averaged 72 minutes of cardio.

I was trying to get my weight down to 165. I could not get below 167.2. But my clothes fit much better.

Starting tomorrow, I will try to reach that goal before Christmas. But I will use the elliptical machine only and no stair master. I think the stair master may have put muscle on my legs.

I am not participating black Friday shopping. I keep politics out of this blog. But is short. I think stores should be closed thanksgiving day and the Ferguson issue are the reasons why. I will go out shopping on Monday.

Sunday November 23, 2014 - Downer Day

Today I am feeling down because my exercise experiment is not working and I can not figure out why. Over the past year, my average weight increased from 165 to 172. I knew is was partly due to my reduced frequency of exercise. So leading up to Thanksgiving, I decided to ramp up my exercising and use myfitnesspal everyday to get under 165 before Thanksgiving.

I can not seem to get under 167.

Since November 9th, I have exercised 12 of the 14 days and increased my cardio minutes from 60 to 95. My daily caloric intake was and still is 1,400 to 1,500 per day.

However, I did change the machine I use. I now complete 35 minutes on the elliptical and 60 minutes on the stairmaster. I use to do 60 on the elliptical, 2 to 4 days a week depending on my weight and upcoming events.

Elliptical:

This is my favorite machine because my knees and hips do not hurt afterward. I use to use the stationary bike but began to have knee and hip pain. I can early complete 60 minutes at a 19 level with 25 being the highest. However, for this experiment, I dropped to 35 minutes as a warmup for the Stairmaster.

Stairmaster:

This machine is a "killer". Over the past 2 weeks I have increased my time from 30 minutes to 60 minutes. I use an average intensity level of 10 with 20 being the highest level. During my use, I increase and decrease the intensity level between 8 and 12.

I wonder if this machine is creating muscle and therefore even with my clothes fitting better, my weight is not dropping as fast as anticipated.

Now to be honest, losing 4 pounds in two weeks is not bad, 172 to 168. I just figured with this much exercise and low caloric intake, I could lose 3 to 4 pounds a week. This would have put me in the 164 to 166 range, which was my goal for Thanksgiving week.

I still have today thru Wednesday to see if I can get to 165 or at least break below 167. Thanksgiving day, I will let you know my final weight.

As an aside, I weight myself the same time every morning with the same digital scale located at the same place in the hallway.

Any suggestions?

Saturday November 22, 2014 - Staying slim

Being a femboy, staying in shape and thin is important.

It's been five years since I started losing weight. I started losing weight after a physical reported that I was becoming a diabetic.

I figured it was a good time to lose weight because I was not going to take insulin. I started at 224 lbs and in 17 months got down to 162 lbs.

I did it with cardio and caloric control (1,600 calories per day) using myfitnesspal app and website.

I reduced my clothes size from 18/20 to 8/10. It was not a diet but a lifestyle change.

I love shopping now.

Detour:

As a matter of fact, I just bought these shoes today. I needed a new black pair and I love the front straps buckle.

Below is the old pair I replaced.

I like the new pair because it is more ornate and feminine, showing more of my foot. The old pair was bland and covered more. The new pair will allow me to add a pretty temporary tattoo to my foot.

I am still hunting for a pretty brown and a green pair of flats. 

Back to main post:

I have kept the weight off for 3.5 years by continuing to control what I eat and doing cardio only. I do not use weights because I do not want muscles. I want to stay long and lean for that younger feminine look.

With the holiday season around the corner. I spend October and November increasing my cardio to reduce my weight before Thanksgiving. That way I can eat more great food without feeling guilty.

I can not wait for Thanksgiving. But in the meanwhile, I have got to remain thin.

If you want more detail in how I lost the weight and kept it off, leave a comment or email me at susank56@aol.com. I will do what I can to give advice.

Wednesday November 19, 2014 - Cold Today

It's cold today in Atlanta. I need a coat and boots. I have been trying to find a pea coat and full length coat 

along with some pretty boots.

I am going to try again today. But I had to wear my grey flats with leg warmers. I had Grey leggings with a light grey turtle neck top. Since I do not have a good feminine coat, I layered my outfit with a green pullover hooded sweater. 

I wish I could have found those tan boots with the fur and lace up front in my size. I am a size 12. Found a size 11 but they were out of  size 12. I am going to hunt for them today at other locations.

Friday November 14, 2014 - At Home

I have some work I must get done today. So I can not get out, except to the gym tonight. So I decided to wear a dress and heels. As a femboy, I am not going to dress like this. I will wears dresses/skirts with my hair (wig).

I will be a lady and not a femboy. I will not say I am passing, I am just being the lady within.

Here is what I am wearing. What do you think?

I like sweater dresses. I am wearing a small and I like the picture above that shows a nice rear. However, I still need to hold my stomach in to get that straight line going down the front.

Sorry about the clothes clutter in the back. I was trying on stuff to see what I wanted to wear. I promise to be a good girl and have it cleaned by this afternoon. Once I finish my work.

I am currently trying to get my weight down to under 160 lbs. I am exercising and using myfitnesspal. This is a test, because if I go on hormones, I want to start out at sub 160 lbs and maintain that weight for 30 to 60 days.

While under hormones, I want to take the first month or two to adjust to a feminine mindset and adjust my body so that when I start to gain weight, it will be in the right places ;-}.

I am usually around 165 lbs. However, this summer I did not exercise as much and gained about 7 lbs. So I know that if I exercise (1 hour of cardio) and eat right (1500 calories), I can lose about 1.2 lbs per day.

I am at 170.2 today. So I am going to exercise and eat right for the next 9 days. If it works, I will be at 159.4. I will let you know how it goes.

So I consider this a test (game) that motivates me to keep my weight down. Plus as a femboy, I look better thin and I love shopping for single digit size clothes. I remember when I was at 1X or size 16/18.

If I could only get my shoe size down to single digit. I wear a 12M. I use to wear a 12W. The width changed when I lost weight and that helped a lot.

Thursday November 6. 2014 - Femboy Day

I went out as a femboy looking for a leather short pea coat. After I found two of them on Tuesday that were too small, I decided to spend the afternoon looking at thrift stores for one in my size.

I wore a brown and dark green base outfit. After I got dressed, I found a hole in my brown leggings. I was upset, because my whole outfit was based around those jeans.

I switched to my dark blue jeans, which was OK, buy not as good as those brown ones.

So also with my pea coat hunt was my dark brown jean hunt.

I went to four Goodwill stores and a Salvation Army store, but could not find anything.

I did find some nice tight dark brown jeans, but I did not want to pay that much. I am so frugal.

I went into another store and had something strange happen to me. There were not many in the store. As I walked in, the sales lady behind the counter said hello. I did not answer because I was thinks about the jeans. She said hello again a bit louder and more persistent. I waved and said hello.

She then looked as her associate and laughed. The other associate kept working and said nothing.

I spent time looking for those jeans in the dark brown. They did not have them, so I left.

Later, I thought about it. I am not trying to pass. I am a femboy. So if I use my male voice, so what?

I noticed the counter lady who laughed had a great hair style. I should have engaged her while I was shopping and compliment her on her hair.

Next time I encounter someone like that, I will respond with grace and compliment that person.

Now, I  encounter a negative situation very infrequently. But in the future when I do encounter a negative response, I am going to followup with a compliment toward them.

I feel we must get out there and interact with the public, if we are to be accepted. Sure there might be uncomfortable moments and even threats, but that happens sometimes when in boy mode. So take care, just like any woman would do. I think one of this issues for us (I talked about this in an earlier post), is that at as a guy, we do not feel the lurking from guys that are hunting women. But when we go out as a women, we feel it and we think its because we are transgendered.

Check these two videos out. Especially, the second one. The second one is about a men passing as a women to test male harassment.

Tuesday November 4, 2014 - Femboys Rule!

I went out today in femboy mode and had the best day ever!

I wore a blue based outfit with black flats. Today was cool in the morning and I did not have a women's jacket, so I wore a blue sweater with my blue jean leggings. I did not have a good blue base color pair of shoes.

So today, I decided to see if I could find a pea coat and some boots.

I went to:
Beauty World: bought 2 rings and 2 bracelets
Shoe World: bought brown flats - found brown thigh hi boots that fit well but cost too much

Goodwill: found two jacket, but the two I really liked were too small. They were both black stretchy Pea Coats. I loved the look and will have to hunt for them in a larger size. The arms and length were good, but the shoulders and width were slightly too small.

While at Goodwill, the best thing ever happened to me. A lady shopping in the same rack as me, asked if I was a fashion designer. I said no and she preceded to compliment me on my outfit and style and that I looked so good, she thought I was a designer.

I was on cloud nine. This was the third store I was in and I received only compliments all day. I was called mama by some and sir by others. I did not care. I had to show my male ID twice and there was no reaction and I reacted like it was no big deal, because it is not.

I felt so comfortable all day. I went to CVS and the guy at the register called me Sir about five times. I did not care. Yes I am a guy, a FEM guy. So where you call me mama, like the lady at Michaels or sir, like the guy at CVS, SO WHAT!

Micheaels: used a coupon to buy a cute glass star pendant.

Goodwill #2: found two women ID holders, but no pea coats

I needed to change my male ID holder. In the future, I will change my ID holder, to better match my purse.

Ultra: bought mascara and brown brow pencil. I was treated as a woman customer the whole time in the store.

They asked if I needed help and I said yes. I wanted to start wearing black and not clear mascara. I am now good at putting on the clear mascara every day. So I asked about how to find the best mascara for me. The lady recommended an expense one and told me to use the tester and try some.

I did try it on one eye and the difference was major. It made my eye really stand out and I could see my long lashes. I could not afford that brand, so she recommended a less expensive brand and I bought it. I also bought a brow pencil based on her recommendation. I signed up for their fee card. I am going to come back and get a makeover.

It was a fantastic day. I am ready to transition into a full time femboy, NOW. However, my job will not accept this. So within a short time, I will change jobs and go full time. But its going to take some some to finish my electrology, find a set of wigs (can not wear a hat 100% of the time) and complete some minor face work.

Once I go full time femboy, then I will slowly become full time woman with wig and voice. Finally, I will take hormones, I found a doctor who I am now using as my regular doctor. After 12 months on hormones, I will see where I go from there.

Well I have to get ready to go to the gym. I am trying to keep my weight down leading up to Thanksgiving and Christmas.

What we femboys must due to stay thin and trim.

Femboys Rule!